I am not a drunk I just keep relapsing.
Congratulations on day 4!
You are doing great!
I tried many times to get sober. I even tried to recruit my husband as my assitant. Failed every time. I am going to give you the same advice Carol D did. This is the newcomers forum. Go to the alcoholism forum and read the second sticky, it has excerpts from a book called "Under the Influence".
Reading that was like a light bulb in my brain. I finally understood why I could not stop drinking even though I knew it was killing me and ruining my life. There was a constant, internal battle going on between my head and heart. I knew I needed to quit, but always talked myself out of it. Finally, my head and heart are in agreement. I can not control alcohol. Alcohol controls me. I am physically addicted to alcohol. I can never safely drink again. ever. I have since purchased the book "under the influence" and read it cover to cover.
Keep reading and posting. The SR family is awesome! I'm glad you found us.
You are doing great!
I tried many times to get sober. I even tried to recruit my husband as my assitant. Failed every time. I am going to give you the same advice Carol D did. This is the newcomers forum. Go to the alcoholism forum and read the second sticky, it has excerpts from a book called "Under the Influence".
Reading that was like a light bulb in my brain. I finally understood why I could not stop drinking even though I knew it was killing me and ruining my life. There was a constant, internal battle going on between my head and heart. I knew I needed to quit, but always talked myself out of it. Finally, my head and heart are in agreement. I can not control alcohol. Alcohol controls me. I am physically addicted to alcohol. I can never safely drink again. ever. I have since purchased the book "under the influence" and read it cover to cover.
Keep reading and posting. The SR family is awesome! I'm glad you found us.
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Dearest Pam, boy I wish I could give you a hug. I struggled with continuous relapses. I was frustrated and disgusted with myself. But you are doing something about it! And that is what it takes, for you and me, more than once or twice. It was a big deal for me to get to 30 days. I know whereof you speak. After trying for 6 years, I am now at 5 months sober without a drop. That is a miracle for me. AA really works if you keep going and working it. Love, Newey (Marie)
Just wanted to update, I am 14 days sober today well actually in a few hours. Between this site and AA and doing everything I am told (well locking my sponser in this week )I am feeling stronger about this part of my life, the addiction part. I take it one day or minute at a time,which ever I have to do at the moment. There is so much love and understanding here..people really can connect and do care. Thanks to everyone for your posts and comments. I get so much from all I read. This is my priority in my life..everything else has to follow, it is the only way for me. Thanks to all of you.
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