lindyg30

yesterday at 12 was the last time i took i felt like utter crap i manage all day and night but this morning i could not do it and the worst is i still feel crap got the docs at 10 thursday see if he can suggest anything get the doc to refer me to counselling i need to get out whats inside there are past and present promblems because i no that something makes me want to take this bloody thing i am okay for a wee while then i explode pure madness my promblem is i always think ppl r right i no im wrong most of the time but this crap its your fault has always is other ppl excuses

lostbutterfly

Lindy, why don't you get yourself into detox/rehab. I know down here there is a waiting list a few months long, but isn't it better than just doing the same thing over and over again and it not working?

Jersey Nonny

The only "failure" is when you stop trying! In AA, we say, "The only requirement for membership is a desire to quit drinking." You certainly want to quit...you need to find the right support system. None of us can do it alone!

Can you try to get on a list for detox? In the meantime, won't you make an effort to get to meetings?

lindyg30

well i had to do it i told my kids i told them the truth so i know i wont do it its screwing my head up but u know i wish other ppl would tell the truth like they do it to but no they just like telling all my faults hey at least i am telling once my head sorted i will have to get a new life throw the bad one away i have to leave for a while gd luck to u all tc

lostbutterfly

Take care Lindy. Don't give up on yourself.

Anna

Hi Lindy,

Try to focus on yourself and your own recovery. Other things will take care of themselves.

CarolD

No you are not a failure...

Many of us had false starts on our way to recovery.

I'm glad you are talking with your doctor.
Please come back and let us know how you are.

timzup

Erm, I'm no good at advice. I'm a bloke, that makes me crap at advice. Just try to.....err......no......hold on.....ah that's it!..... Nope ...........forgot again....that's it........Hang in there and hold onto your determination?

See? Not totally stupid am I ?

Hang in there Lindy, you know you want to change, that's the first and biggest step.

lindyg30

im bk and staying i was listening to other people saying i was sad to have written in this but there the sad ones thxs guys for replying

lostbutterfly

Glad you're back. You can't get too much support when you are going thru this!

Thanks2HP

Just wanted to offer words of encouragement. I've felt the same way on many occasions but it really isn't true. The disease tells us many things which aren't true. Please get some help whether it's detox or meetings. One thing I know for sure is that we cannot go it alone! Seek help from those who have gone before you. They will show you the way.