Rebecca4

Please could you help?
I have been going to AA and it has really interfered with my drinking, and I am so glad.
I am so grateful for the stories of their rock bottoms, that they tell me. One very nice lady told me she went through her low to stop me going through mine.
I make myself spend one hour each day, on sober recovery forum, reading peoples posts, learning and educating myself.
Could you please help me by contributing what was your bottom and how you raised yourself up from this?
I just want to have a thread or resource so that when I want to pick up in the small hours, I can come and read inspirational thoughts here.

Love and prayers to you all
B
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Anna

Hi Rebecca,

Coming to SR has helped me a lot, in many ways.

No matter when, I can always find something inspirational to read.

I reached my bottom just over 8 years ago and knew I needed to stop drinking. I found some good books on spirituality and began the process of rediscovering myself. SR has been a lifeline for me.

Rebecca4

But how did you know that was your bottom?

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least

My 'bottom' wasn't physical or financial, tho it could have been at any moment. Mine was more mental. I had lost the respect of my kids, as well as my self respect. I hated the miserable person I had become. I was afraid I would never be able to stay sober and that scared me badly. I was afraid of what awful event might be about to happen.

I saw my whole life as a big waste of oxygen. I had forgotten how to laugh or smile or be truly happy. I couldn't look at myself in the mirror anymore. My future looked dark and bleak and lonely. I didn't want to live anymore as a miserable drunk.

I'm glad I stopped drinking as something horrible was bound to happen to me if I kept on drinking like that. I don't have too many cravings for wine anymore, but when I do I just "play the tape through to the end" - to the horrible days of endless withdrawal and misery and self hatred, and any cravings are just chased out of my head.

I hope this helps you!:ghug3

Anna

I think it's something you just know. You just know you need to decide to change your life.

It's different for every person, and it's not something someone can tell you about. You just know.

NewDayNow

How do you know?

For some it's realizing that the alcohol has too much importance in there lives. For me, the alcohol was my life. For a very dear friend of mine it's a cardboard box home in a Richmond Va alley. For one of my coworkers and a dear friend it was suicide. For my oldest brother and favorite uncle it was death by alcohol.

Only the alcoholic knows. Hopefully, before it is too late

Thank you for that question Rebecca

I hope my explanation doesn’t seem too harsh.

Ed

TTOSBT

I knew I hit bottom when I put my own child in danger due to my alcoholism. That was my lowest of the low. I will do whatever it takes to NEVER go back there!

Hevyn

Hi Rebecca, it's great you found us. If there is such a thing as a bottom, I guess mine was in January when I realized I was back to drinking 24/7. Literally - I kept a beer by my bed so I could sip on it when I woke up shaky during the night. I was lying to my husband, and went to the store when he was at work for my private "stash" I hid in our closet. All the lengths I went to so I could keep it in my system didn't even result in me being happy or calm. I was insane and miserable. I also was afraid to fall asleep because I thought I might not wake up - my heart would pound & I'd jump up, pace the floor and drink some more until I calmed down. Oh, I can never go back there. Please let us know how you're doing. Love, Joanie

Rusty Zipper

B

forget the fact my health was shot, broke, car held together with duct tape...

living with a crack head, bills months in the rears...

had alhoholic irresponsibility, my days were all lies...

what was worse...

i couldn't laugh, i couldn't cry, i could not feel!

good wishes to you B

love & many blessings

rz

Surlyredhead

Lets see..I had lost my Husband, Son, family, job, my self respect, pride....I had been in jail and had two warrants out for my arrest, was in an institution and I still couldn't stop drinking!!! If I coughed or sneezed, my nose would bleed. My skin was so dry, I was peeling from head to foot...yep, still drank every day..at least a fifth of 80-100proof vodka. I was bloated and so sick, I still can't believe I woke up every day!! To be honest, I wished that someone would just put me out of my misery. I was alone and sick and it was my own fault. It must have been a miracle that made me decide that if I wasn't going to die, I might as well try to live....I entered inpatient treatment that was State paid with a referral from the Health Department (because I was homeless) on April 27, 1994 and stayed a year and a half, with the help of the treatment facility, AA and my support network,I have been clean since that day. I did not do it alone, nor could I have.

Cathy

CarolD

My final 5 years of drinking had me on the edge of insanity.
I still had all the outward trimmings of a sucessful life
but inside I was depresssed...cold and dismal.

I detested the woman I had become by drinking...:brick
That is when I reached my bottom.

My fantastic new life gives me purpose and joy.
God and AA work great for me!


Keep in focus...keep moving forward Rebecca ..

Pinkcuda

I was a 20 year old kid roaming the streets of Salt Lke City. No home, no job, no food. I was bouncing back and forth between Blood Bank and Liquor Store. I was stealing food and showering at public swimming pools once a week. That wasn't my bottom. I drank for 23 more years.
My bottom came as a 44 year old Engineer with a wife, kids, and a house in the suburbs.
One day in September I poured out my first drink of the day and began puting the pieces of my life back together.

BUTTERFLY-7

Hello: Rebeca,Bottoms is when you Get Tire of Been, Sick and Tire,
of the same out comes, to others Hitting there Bottoms
could Be when your Life is out of control, and you your self
have no control over your Addiction,

and when this Disease takes you to do unbelievable things you never tough you
would do, and you end up losing everything,your family
your children,your Marriage,your self respect,your Value's
your Dignity,and to some they lose there life's
is Sad but is the true reality of this Disease, call "Addiction"


Me for instance I star it at the age of 14 Yrs old, and it star it
with a Social life, or so call Associates cause there is no friends
cause a true friend won't give you things that will harm you
we all no that of course, then I star it experimenting with other
stuff I had no business messing with, But the funny thing about
this Disease is not rapid depending on how much you use
some could tolerate it, and still function and go on to there marry ways
back to work, and there Family's.(But Eventually it will escalate)

Me for instance once I hit my 20"s is when I star it using cocaine
I was on my mid 20"s when I realize that I was losing the battle
and I was hook, then it progress it, cause is like feeding a little Monkey
and when you come to see the more you feed it, the Bigger it grows and it becomes
a Gorilla, and that's when the Disease of Addiction Progress it to it's next Stage, or Level, and if you Don't try to Get help on time, or force your self to get Help
you will eventually want to feel the same High and you will experiment
with something Bigger,

and that's what happened to me my Disease Progress to the point
That I when and Experimented with Crack cocaine,That's when I Hit
my Bottom's, of my Bottom's, back in the late 90's I was
out of control, it own me, Lisa Had know control over the usage, nor the quantity,
then it takes you to Levels of Periodic Insanity, and Chaos, Until whats left of you
Cry's out for Help, and that my Dear is what you call a Bottom
I Hope this true reality sinks in your mind, and Spirit, Because this Disease is not
Playing,I Hope I was of Help to make you understand the true reality of this Stage call Bottoms, Bye for Now :codiepolice