Ananda

hi...did i scare everyone off with my last tacky post? Sorry

Hi astro (wavey)

frst!!!! (hug)

I'm off to bed!!!!:ghug

least

One of my last relapses I had cried to my daughter that I'd fallen off the wagon. She sent me back an email that really stung me cause it was so true, like an arrow that pierces the heart. She said "you didn't fall off mom, you JUMPED off." She was right.

But it was one of the last times I jumped off the wagon. I really learned from that. Only sorry I didn't learn it sooner.

Dee74

been busy today peeps
now I feel like I'm gonna collapse LOL

later all

D

stone

Sorry you are feeling down Jules, you will be OK.

Least, my sponsor sent me a similar email, he was pretty harsh/blunt about it. Said I didn't want sobriety. I guess he is right.

He is doing the tough sponsor thing and if I don't take directions he will fire me...

Rowan

So - just like that - you're going to give up, Paul?

stone

No, I am going to take the directions.

paulmh

Your sponsor emails you?

You've given me something else to be grateful for today Stone. At least the internet is a safe haven from my sponsor.

Not that I'm afraid of him.

Much.

Welcome back, incidentally.

stone

Yep, we are in contact by email as well as the phone. It looks like I now have to do what he says. I am scared of him too, lol.

parentrecovers

hey assville!

survived day one of my new job. i've had bad sleep the past few nights, but it'll normal out once i get used to my routine. mr k is pitching in extra to help me over the hurdle. he was getting spoiled to me doing everything at home, with my part time hours. but he is happy about a bigger paycheck ...

keep bein' idiots! and stone - follow directions!

hugs all around and knucklehead sandwiches for all who need one. taco on!

stone

Hi K.

I might as well say what the directions are, a meeting every day and going through the steps again. I don't drive so it is quite inconvenient BUT I have to do it.

Ananda

well stoney..I sure am glad you're posting again!

Hope you keep posting here tooo!!!! I've missed you (hug)

PC - I''m glad you are liberating Mr. K from his male steriotypical breadwinner role! He'll be glad he gets to help around the house after a while

Dee74

I hope this time works Stoney.

night all
D

stone

Hi nands.

Me too Dee, this is the first time I have ever agreed to do a meeting a day...so at least I am doing that differently.

paulmh

As long as "this time" works today we're ok.

If you're going to do a meeting a day I'll come and pick you up for some. Not tonight, but maybe tomorrow, definitely Thursday if you fancy. I'll take you to my home group.

stone

Thanks Paul, thursday would be good.

frstnm

This is only up the hill on the island about a quarter of the way.
I havent been there in @ least 25 years !
I still remember walking all the way to the top and eating at the restaurant there. On the way down it was a little past dusk and there were bunches of deer hopping over the road and the rock wall.
Such innocent memories before drugs and alcohol.

Im hoping to get there one more time when the foliage is in peak conditions.
I dont know if we will have the same calm seas that we did this day !
There is always Hope and next year !

Nands, I am almost always here as I check my mail, read my horrorscope and read bottoms almost religously before I get going for the day.
Sometimes I post, others I just prefer to lurk or leave a footprint by thanking posts.

Everybody have a wonderful day !
:ghug3

Ananda

wasn't critizising i didn't thin

frstnm

Stone - good to see you back and posting; and thinking about trying different things as the old ones didnt happen to work.
I had to go to 2 sometimes 3 meetings a day to get sober sometimes. I still go to 2 alot of days since I am only working for myself and dont drive. Its a good way to get some people around me. Get in some recovery and "con" a ride out of someone going my direction for whatever job I am working on. It doesnt mean I WILL stay sober but it really helps. Even if I feel like crap I do the "footwork" to get there. I usually feel better. Alot of the time I just go and listen. Sometimes I share and try to come up w some humorous story about what is going on around in in Life. It serves as a reminder why I dont want to drink again. I need to remember the horror show and the mental/physical pain I went through during my drinking and using and of course of the detox which hopefully I will never have to endure again.

Stone - feel free to contact me anytime as I am nearly always online looking up stuff on the web, checking SR, Bottoms and my email.

That is kind of you Paulmh to get Stone to some meetings.


Nands - not taken that way ;-}

Bamboozle

Hey, stone. I heard you were here.

Hope things are going well for you. Take it easy.

gypsytears

Agreeing is great... doing is different.

Make sure you know the difference.

And do it.