Bamboozle

I relapsed.

I vowed to post about it should I do so again...here I am.

Right now I'm dealing with "fertilizer" instead of roses...

I'm not looking for advice.

I'm not looking for tough love, either.

No one has to say a thing.




The only purpose of this post is to keep me honest about my recovery.



I'm sober right now.

Ananda

Thanks Bam! I'm glad your here

Impurrfect

(((Bam)))

I was a little harsher on myself when I relapsed.

You're sober now, and you just pick up where you left off. Figure out what worked last time, and what led to your relapse so you don't make that mistake again.

I'm proud of you for posting here and being honest.

Hugs and prayers!

Amy

Bamboozle

Thanks people...

I refuse to beat myself up over this. It will not help my situation.

What happened...it makes me a little afraid, but I am thinking clearly because I'm not upset. I need to think clearly to move on.

Rowan

Honesty is good. Welcome back.

rurdy2rk

Your coming on here and posting speaks clear of your desire to stay sober. Everyone here, regardless of sobriety date, is one heartbeat away from a relapse. Pick yourself up, and start again. There are not to many of us who have not been in your shoes - and most did NOT come right out and admit it.

Cheer up, and don't beat yourself up. Today is a great day to start over..

Tom

Toomutch

Thank you for your honesty.

Anna

I'm glad you're here, Bamboozle.

back2theliving

Honesty is always the best policy

colagirl

Hi Bamboozle,
I don't think you suck .

As much as I hate them, I've learned a lot from each of my relapses.

Glad you're back!

Mattcake

Congratulations on your honesty Bamb. Uhmmmuhmh.... Regarding your point of view... From my experience, sometimes beating yourself up a bit (just a bit) is not a bad idea

Pick yourself up and keep going, we're all here for each other.

Horselover

Hey Bam - I am glad you came here. Was it the lack of job thing? Whatever, glad you're here and back to the chalk board.

CarolD

That's a good start...

Hevyn

Hi Bam - no tough love or advice - just sayin' I've been there and the last time was IT for me, & I'm at 9 mos. You're going to make it too - you didn't go away and hide, you came here. That's brave, & it shows you're determined.

Dee74

You don't suck Bam - you're just like the rest of us

I hope you come back and post more about this tho - no beating yourself up sure, but you know as well as I do in order to get something positive out of this, you not only need to look what happened, why it happened and why you reacted like you did, but you need to talk about it too...

If we don't learn from our mistakes we're doomed to repeat them - alcoholics (and addicts) more than anyone

D

Eclipse

I don't either. Hang in there!

Isaiah

Mistakes happen. Grateful you're back and standing up.

least

I've done it too, too many times. I thought I was hopeless but I wasn't.

BillyGoat

HI bam. Sorry to here about your slip. Thanks for your honesty though.

Hope

Glad you are back and sober today. Today is a new day!