Dave1977

Hi all. I just wanted to introduce myself and say hello. I am new to this forum, but have been in and out of recovery (mostly out) for 5-6 years now. I can put together a few months of sobriety here and there, but I seem to always go back to drinking. I am trying my best to stay sober, but something inside of me is really stopping me from working the steps honestly and thoroughly.

I feel like that guy from the Big Book who keeps jumping in front of moving traffic. I just got out of a 28-day treatment center 2 weeks ago, and last night I drank again. I am not drinking tonight, though.

Dave.

SlvrMag

Welcome! You came to the right place for support. Do you go to meetings?

ANGELINA243

Welcome Dave! Glad you are here! And yes...I too can relate to the jaywalker story.....congrats on not drinking tonight. (All we have is today)

Luckyv2

Welcome Dave and glad your here!

There is a lot of support here and I have never been to a in-patient treatment but I do know that all any of us have is today. I too have been in and out. I get a little bit more days sober n clean but all we have is the now....

Keep coming around and posting and remember together we can!

Dave1977

Thank you all for your kind words. I try to go to at least 5 meetings a week. Today, I did not go and made up a lame excuse to myself - that I had to do laundry. The real reason was a combination of laziness and also shame that I felt for destroying several weeks of sobriety.

Hope

There is a lot of support and knowledge here at SR! You have found a great place. Welcome!

Don't beat yourself up. Today is a new day. What's done cannot be undone so don't beat yourself up anymore.

You are here right now with a desire to stay sober. That is big! Just don't give up!

Aysha