Isaiah

I just got hit with a terrible stroke of bad luck. It's extremely embarrassing and painful to talk about in detail. Suffice it to say I got severely and absurdly punished for something I absolutely did not do.

Tomorrow I find out if I still have a job. There's a very good chance I wont. I was pulled off the job Monday--without the chance to explain why. My reputation has been completely shattered. Even though I can prove that I didn't do anything wrong; what happened nonetheless reflected terribly on our very family-oriented company.

None of this has anything to do with drinking either. I've kept sobriety by some miracle now since the start of the month. I have it for today. Tomorrow, I'm worried that if things go bad with my job that I'm in a bad position to find another one. My financial security is nil.

I had to get all this off my chest. I'm just holding on to my sanity right now by a thread. There are going to be a lot of threats to my sobriety in the next few weeks. I'm grateful that I have you all 24-7. You're indispensable.

colagirl

Wow, I'm really sorry. I wish I had more advice for you, but keep hanging out here with us! Maybe it will work out better than you think it will.

Hevyn

Isaiah, it's times like these when staying clear headed is imperative. Imagine facing the next few weeks feeling sick & shakey - plus remorseful because you started drinking again. Your credibility will be shot if you're weak and disoriented. I know it sounds like a cliche, but nothing is made better by picking up. Stay sober and fight this thing.

Isaiah

I am gravely pessimistic by nature. So I guess that means things really can only turn out better than I think they will.

I'm going to fight this sober. Right now there's absolutely nothing that I would want more than to be totally drunk and numb. But I know full well that to do so will not get my out of my problems. Take your blows and grow stronger, right?

One day at a time hasn't failed me so far.

NewDayNow

One day at a time.

Hang in there Isaiah. We are here

Ed

least

I am sorry you were judged unfairly and punished for something you didn't do. But I'm also glad, and proud of you, for not drinking over it. THere's nothing so bad that drinking can't make worse. Just take it one day, one hour, one minute at a time. You CAN get thru this without losing your sobriety. Please don't let yourself down.

:ghug3 and an extra one too :ghug3

Dee74

Firstly I hope you're being gravely pessimistic and things will be ok. If things should prove to be not so ok, keep posting here, Isaiah.

When things are at their darkest, this place has bought me through.

best wishes to you
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CarolD

I am sorry you are in turmoil
Prayers for your peace zinging out.

back2theliving

I am truely hoping you dont lose your job over this, good luck to you and wtg on not picking up the bottle

bostonluv

Isaiah - I'm to ill to make a whole lot of sense but wantd to give you support as you are a VERY valuable member here. Your posts always strike me as sensible and logical. Big props for not drinking tonight. I know it was tempting and you deserve a pat on the back for that. I hope your fears will be allivated tomorrow.

Kathleen

IO Storm

Isaiah

I hope you will be proven right. Don't drink no matter what. I know

you are scared..but you never how things will turn out.

You have my prayers..

Don't give up.

Isaiah

I spent a lot of my night after my post writing down things I might say in conversation with my boss today, so I've got some lines ready. Way more productive than that *other thing* I could've done. Especially because, while I am a pretty good communicator in writing, I'm a mess at face-to-face.

If things don't go well. I've got a plan already in place. Come home, come here, smoke a pack of cigarettes, eat a quart of ice cream, listen to gospel albums, and start job hunting online.

Always good to have a plan.

Isaiah

Oh, and thank you everyone for your supportiveness.

(I'm such an ungrateful ninny sometimes!)

Dee74

I'll check in my tomorrow to see what's happening, Isaiah.
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Isaiah

If I'm not here during the evening, then I'm probably at work, and it's probably a good sign.

IO Storm

Don't forget to post Isaiah..

Saying a prayer now!

DJMH

I recogonized alot of what you were talking about Isiah. I am not in work trouble, yet, but am in financial ruin. I just joined this site today and am only a few days into sobriety. I am taking it, literally one hour at a time. But I do know, that God has helped me in the past, and I know He will help you too.

It is in times like these, you need to turn to Him, now.

Hang in there bro.

maybe we work out our demons together.

Isaiah

Thanks, DJMH! I had, for the first time in a while, a string of good luck today. I couldn't thank God enough. I'm sure yours will be coming soon. Keep that faith; it's the best thing we've got.

One hour at a time is a great way to go. My own personal welcome to the forum. I've been coming here a couple months now, and it's very helpful. Voices of reason and support from all over the world, 24-7. Hope you find it useful here too.

Update: I didn't lose my job. Apparently, I didn't come close. Once my boss heard my side of the story in full there wasn't any issue and in fact she even offered to give me some time off if I needed (which, darn it all I do, but can't afford.)

So I feel very much relieved. I'm making tonight a personal celebration for myself.

"Bartender, give me three fingers of coffee. Make it black."

Lenina

I'm so happy for you! I was thinking and worrying about you all day!

Love,

Lenina

bostonluv

That's wonderful Isaiah! Thanks for sharing your good news with us! Whew!