Welcome to SR Westie. Congratulations on making a decision to end the insanity. Can you find a face to face organization to help or therapist? What about AA? I would think you would benefit from having people to call if you feel weak or just need to talk. Of course, you can post anytime on SR, but if you need immediate help, having a person to call is a good idea. Good luck Westie and welcome once again!!
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