All About Love

i need people in the thick of early recovery at the moment
people living it
doin it
struggling the insanity
the voices of early days
please help me get well
im wearing out an down
dont want to be here
need to

y do people look at personalities an not principles?

WLDKATZ

wow, having a rough day today brain fried?????
I am just over 15 months clean......and I still cannot answer some of those things....everyday is a struggle...the best thing you have going for yourself is your youth.....it doesn't mean you aren't just as addicted.....but some of us olderones have different problems that go with our addictions ie children spouses morgages hell even health probs...........


as far as personalities or principles........isnt it funner???


HUGS<
Pamm

All About Love

thanx for thinking im youthfull
im 35 in few days though hun
and i have kidney disease
3kids too 17 5 10
so i understand more than i htink im being credited for in my recovery

i dont find pers over principles much fun hun when it endangers others
which it does at times
thats just reality
i know others (ive been in n out of recov since 1993!)
that have ben so hurt by that stuff they chose to use


was the last choice they made u c.........
this is where im coming from

i was a 19year old child when introed to recovery
ive grown up(sorta/kinda/still geting there) in the rooms

its hard stuff an im no angel
certainly not preaching to be
i have faults like all others do too
just i dunno
i just do not know

WLDKATZ

wish you weren't so far away would love to give you a hug!!!!!
I am 38 so I understand a little......no children my son died 4 years ago but didnt have him long enough to understand what being a parent was all about.......
as for the personalities or principles....me myself I prefer principles.....there are far too many personalities and way too many of them being phucked up far more than mine ever will be for me to understand!!!!

I have been in and out of the drug and booze scene since I was 12 with both of my parents as well as my brothers having drug and booze problems......... so again that is probally where I get my love of principles at........ but choices is something that everyone has to make and wether it be their first or their last it has to be theirs.....


good luck hon!!!! Keepin ya in my prayers!!!!


HUGS,
Pamm

All About Love

thanx pam

sorry to hear of yr boy
thats got 2 be hard

i hope your teeth feel better soon

im thinkn v you an sending you healing

lots an lots of love
nikky

bostonluv

We're human and most can't help but look at personalities. I am enjoying your recent posts. Thanks for letting us get to know you and not shielding yourself with humor/sarcasm. Have you made a couple close friends on here? I encourage you find at least two people who you click with. Who "get" you that you can confide in and vice versa. It really helps. Start by just reading posts and pming the people who you'd like to get to know better. Reach out and you may be surprised. Hang in there kiddo.

dancinggirl

I'm so befuddled today that I don't even get the concept of "principles vs personalities" right now. I do know that some people rub me the wrong way, just as I rub others totally the wrong way. I'm the type of person that people either love or hate. No middle ground.

I'm sorry you're having a hard go of it today...some days are just so much worse than others, eh? However, you're heading to rehab soon and taking the steps you need to make changes in yourself. You're doing the right things even if it doesn't feel like you're getting the payoffs right now. It'll come! You're doing what you need to and that's the important part.

scoob

It's a rollercoaster.

Bamboozle

Humans are social beings.


Hello, brainfried. I don't have two months sober yet...This latest streak is the longest I've had...I just go moment to moment and I frequent SR. Too much, probably. There are other things I should be doing right now. I need to budget my time better. Find a balance...


I don't have any answers because I don't think I've quite figured it out for myself. Once I figure it out, I probably still won't have any answers for anyone. Sorry. I think that recovery, no matter in what form, is a very personal journey. I'm looking forward to seeing if I can stop messing up and start doing really fun things in my life--things I've always wanted to do that are impossible to do under the influence. I try to be a positive person now. If you knew me, you'd be laughing at that statement. For a long time pessimism was my motto. Oh, I'm not full of sunshine now, but I realize that if I don't have hope, then what exactly is it that I have left?

Keeping my fingers crossed as always. Try to take it easy.

All About Love

thankyou all so much for your replies an such its very heartwarming i have to say.
BL~~yr kind words are greatly appreciated, funny i was just thikn of you as i logged on wondering if you would ever talk to me again...lol2my paranoia!

DG!!~~~~~~~~WOWEE i really dig you is all i can say, you are a fantastic lady, i hope to get to know you more

dancinggirl

bf: seriously, I have no social life...I'm on here all the time. lol Write whenever you need!

All About Love

i think im an SR addict!!!!!!!!!! gahhhhhhhhhhh!

on a serious note im really goin to miss sooooooo many v you
if i can manage an int connect up there(think ive nearly crackt it!!! mobile ph as modem!! woohoo!!)
i will have to limit myself an show restraint, be a responsible user! lol!
or



they might take my mac aways>>>>>NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOO!!!!

scaredykat

Hi Brainfried. I just wanted to write you and let you know I know where your coming from on the "principles before personalities". I'm almost 8 months sober and i was struggling with this for quite a while. Worrying about what people think of me. I still do sometimes yet.

I'm not sure if your in AA or not, but for me they're was a few people in AA that really made me nervous and i felt intimidated by them. It was so bad that i avoided certain meetings in my area.

Well something finally clicked in my head not to worry about those people and hang out with the people that really do care about me. I have a right to be at those meetings i was thinking. Tradition 3 is what helped me a lot too. I'm now going to those meetings and I'm really glad I am. They are good meetings.

I don't know if i helped or not. Just wanted to share my thoughts about it.

Barb

All About Love

every post helps SC evry one in some way!
guarantee it.
ima have a look at tradition3 in the blue book(N/A)
today thanx for that
i get intimidated very easily too so i really getting you when you said bout that

for me(someone with a huge vocal mouth thats scary) im just a li'l ol'e SCAREDY CAT!
gotta fly out this house now
c y'all later.
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