Hope

I will be taking a short break from SR but I wanted to put up notice so no one would get worried. I will be back. I am going to be okay.

I appreciate everyone's support. Thank you all for helping me get through today.

bostonluv

Hi Hope. May I ask where you're going? We'll miss your posts.

Horselover

Ditto what Kathleen said. Where to Magoo? You did say "short," right?

Hope

I won't be gone "too" long.
It will be short.

bostonluv

*Sigh* We'll be here when you return Hope. If you're going to drink again then I don't think you can really say for how long you'll be gone. I'm not telling you something you don't already know though.

IO Storm

At least read my post before you go Hope on the other thread.

:praying:

dancinggirl

Wishing you the best!

Hope

I'm not leaving to drink. I just want to pull myself together first before I come back. I'm a mess now. It's hard for me to be a mess in front of people. My moods are all over the place. I'm detoxing and in pain. I'll settle down more after I am finished with the physical detox. I'm happy one minute, sad the next, then just downright angry. And then back around again. Detox makes me feel crazy and every bad thing is extremely intensified at this time. I'm not going to drink today. I don't even have the energy to get up and leave this place even if I wanted to go somewhere. I feel completely like crap.

I am irritated because I just want to sleep through it but I have insomnia and can't sleep.

IO Storm

Gotcha..

Hope

I am sorry everyone.

I don't mean to act so crazy now. It's just my body freaking out on me as it's kicking this stuff out of my system.

Please know that I am truly grateful for all of the support here. I appreciate each and every one of you.

I'd be much more calm if my body was settled down. But it's miserable physically and I am etching this painful moment into my brain.

You are all the best. Don't mind me at the moment. I am really physically sick. Can't eat, sleep, shaking, muscle cramps. It's awful. Hot/cold flashes. It's almost like the flu so that is what I'm trying to pretend that it is.

Sorry I am spazzing at the moment. This is where the journey begins.

Hope

It is probably also because my anxiety level is through the roof at this current moment.

I'll be glad when the physical part is over. Time is dragging by so slowly though. This one day feels like it has taken a year to pass.

Hope

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bostonluv

Do you have what you need? Like soda crackers, hard candies, ginger ale, gaterade, etc.? Some peaceful movies (no Bruce Willis), etc.? The least you can do is lay down and watch something or listen to something soothing because you probably won't sleep for awhile. Do youhave a friend who can come over and bring you stuff or hang out with you? You can just say you've got the flu.

Hope

LOL, the funny thing is that I haven't went grocery shopping in the past 2 weeks so all I have is a box of lucky charms and a gallon of milk... and one TV dinner.

Pretty much my typical college student diet. Not that it's healthy but I live here by myself.

The only way out is through so I'm just pushing on through this.

Bamboozle

No need for you to apologize, Hope. Just do whatever it is you need to do to take care of you. :ghug3

least

Take good care of yourself, ok?

:ghug

Surlyredhead

. Take all the time you need, but please know I am here if you need me, you can PM me and I will give you my e-mail address, or I will look for you here!! You are not alone in the struggle.

Cathy

Hope

Definitely. :ghug3

Hope

Thanks for the kind words!

Hope

Probably if I am ever able to get another night of good sleep, I'm sure I'd feel better tremendously.