adore79

I pray and meditate a lot, and as time goes on I have been doing it more and more. I dont think it is too important to believe in a God or not, just praying and meditation is a big help. I've read that trying to connect with your spiritual side, through prayer and meditation releases beneficial chemicals in your brain, and certain neuro pathways are used while doing these activities that makes you more emotionally healthy.

four812

it's time for me to change. it's early in the morning, saturday at work, and I want to change. I want to change. i want to live a life without drug/alcohol addiction.

i'm beat. i could take more beating, but i don't have to

dear god/universe....today may i stay clean. may the power of strength and love be available to me. help me to face the uncomfortablness that comes, after the pain from last nights "beating" wears off.

Aysha

That sounds alot better than saying your fate is sealed with getting high.
You can do this...HUGS

four812

one hour left before work is over, and i'm not having urges or thoughts of using.

I know they will come sometime/someday, but for now it's like a first day in rehab...plenty of food and liquid and a little foggy all around.

I have a little hope. i have a little drive to wanting to change.

I've got side 5 of a book on tape cued up to continuing listening to on the drive home. it's titled "Alcohol: a love story". i'm enjoyin it a lot and it helps me not feel as alone and it helpos me focus on recovery during the drive.

bostonluv

I love that book. She has a lot of good insight on addictions.

Aysha

Thinking of you today...Hope your doing good.