Serenidad

I have been so depressed today! As I said earlier, my sponsor fired me for NO REASON last night! She said it was "about her". WTF? Well- I have been very down all day today! I haven't felt this bad since my last drink in April. I have been really hard on myself today too. I keep wishing I could just move to a new city with new people where no one knows me. I feel like I ruined my life when I was drinking and made a fool of myself and now I can't face it! It is embarrassing! I can't move b/c I have 3 kids and a husband.

HELP! Will I ever be able to get through early sobriety? The thought of a drink has crossed my mind a lot today. I am not going to drink but I feel really HOPELESS today!

Anna

Hi Jen,

It's really, really hard to get through early sobriety.

It means taking a good hard look at who you are and what you've done in your life, and it hurts.

But, there's no way around it. If you want to change and to move forward, you have to go through it.

It does get better.

Aysha

Early recoery is really tough.
Wish it was so easy to just go back and do it all over again.
I use to think like that. But the more I thought about it. The more I relize it was all those experiences that has made me the person I am today. And honestly..I wouldnt change any of it. With the exception of hurting my family.
I dont think I could ever learn a bigger lesson than this.
Learn from your mistakes.
Anna nailed it.
Doesnt matter where you go. You cant run from yourself.
The more you deal with it and accept it. The more distant it will feel.
It will get better.

chickenlady

Anna! WTF??? How can a sponsor actually do that? No heart? Wasn't meant to be girl. Wasn't meant to be. There's going to be a new and a better sponsor for you. Stay positive and focused on your sobriety.

Take Care!@

Chicken

nogard

hi Jen,

Sorry about your sponsor, its not a good eason to pick up though, there is never a good reason. How about checking out new sponsors and talking to some members.

This too shall pass.

Kevin

Aysha

Whoa...I think it would be wise to consider maybe this perosn may be struggling themselves. Until it is known for sure what the deal is. I think all assumptions should be left alone.
Just because a person has time in recovery and is a sponsor doesnt mean they dont still go through what we go through in early recovery.
I know its tough Jen wondering and thinking maybe you did something.
But until you really know.
And if it turns out to be like you think. Then good ridance.

Dee74

Thanks Trish - you saved me about three posts LOL



I'm down with Chiy.
D

Lenina

Jen,

There has been so many times I wished I could get a "do over" in my life I completely understand how you feel. But you know what? Some of the worst messes I created and then had to live with made me a better person.

I learned to be less judgmental and less demanding of others. I learned how important it was to not hold resentments. I learned humility of a level I couldn't have conceived of before.

I don't take blessings for granted as often and appreciate the gifts in my life.

I learned to laugh at myself. You know, "Rule 62"? Lordy, I am one funny girl! I learned kindness doesn't have to be a trade off. It's freely given by me today.

I don't have to be perfect. It doesn't matter if someone doesn't like me for whatever reason they may have as long as I know I'm doing the best I can.

I wish I was a better writer so I could explain it. Yes, I wish I hadn't been or done some things. I can't change those facts. But I can and am willing to change me and the way I run my life today.

I can accept criticism with a grain of salt and learn more about how I can be better every day.

I'm sure you are a lovely person, inside and out. You just don't believe it yet.

Much love,

Lenina

Jules62

Hey Jen,

Not much more I can add here but I wanted to say I'm really sorry you feel down and I'm sorry you felt so hurt by your sponsor.Sometimes we have to remember they're just people too with their own issues but it hurts when it's someone you trusted, I'm sure.

Hang in there.You have tons of support here,

Julesxox

nogard

Seems to me that if your sponsor sacks you its time to look for another.

Aysha

I think she said she found one already.
But I know its gotta be a slap in the face. Especially without explaination.
But what are you gonna do.
I see nothing wrong on your part Jen. Dont beat yourself up.

nogard

Nope she didn't say that Trish

How you doing Jen?

Kevin

Aysha

Sorry Kev...Really not trying to bump heads with you. You didnt see this thread earlier.

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-hard-day.html

lizw

I'm having sponsor issues myself, different to yours though. In reverse.

A lot of my problems (even now) center around me being unable to accept life as it unfolds. I think it's unfair, god's got it wrong and this shouldn't be happening to me!

Go visit someone else 'life', I'm quite happy here on my own!


In AA they say 'It Passes'.
The good goes. The bad comes. Then the bad goes. And the good comes back. It's life.

We're lucky we are sober and know this eh?
Drinking it was just same s**t different day.

Take it easy.
:ghug

nogard

Thanks Trish.

mxchaos

I think getting sober is a new life
sorry your so down just remember it won't last. take a walk do some deep breathing and if the depression doesn't go away go see a doc
one day at a time

Serenidad

I feel a little better this morning. Mostly because I read your posts! Thank you thank you thank you!
:ghug3

tommyk

Sponsors are in recovery.

Double edge sword that cuts both ways:

Have a sponsor keep sponsoring even though they don't want to or can't...?

Have the sponsor terminate the relationship?

(No right or wrong answer?)

This too shall pass, keep coming back.

Master G

You can start over again ... today ;-)

One of my first presents to my father was a picture that had this quote:

Today is the first day of the rest of your life.

Good luck in recovery :ghug

gravity

Hi Jen,

Just a few thoughts that help me get through those inevitable tough times:

- The past is gone. I can't change it. Just accept it and learn from it - nothing else I can do. Beating myself up accomplishes nothing. Let it go and move on.
- Right now, I am sober and everything in my life is okay. Just accept that I have a good life and be grateful.
- All I have to do is not take that first drink and keep working on my recovery. As long as I do this, I will keep getting stronger and my life will keep getting better.

For me, these are absolute truths.

Try not to let the actions of other people get you down. You will never know why people do what they do. Just accept it and do the next right thing. Everything will work out.

Happy that you are feeling better !