Gotta stop
 

Well I have been denying that I am an alcoholic, but since I can't seem to quit for more than a few days and since I can't seem to drink "socially" you know just one or two, and since I keep making excuses to not stop, and since my drinking is starting to effect my work, I have called in "sick" more frequently than ever. I think it is time to admit I have a problem and look for help. so here I am. I haven't drank since last night and I don't want to start again. Two years ago I quit for 30 days and felt great. Started drinking while on vacation and have been got right back into the groove again. Drink, feel like crap, say I need to quit, stop for a day or so and then find an excuse any excuse to drink again after work to late night. Beer and wine mostly, but I'll do shots at the bar. That has been my MO for the past 20 years, yep 20 years. I don't drink during the day, only when I get lonely after work and seek out social friends. At least that is the excuse that has helped me deny my problem. So I am going to use this website, the forums, chat, and resources to get sober.

Welcome Gotta Stop!

You came to a great place.

Hi and Welcome,

I'm glad you found us.

I tried to control my drinking too, for a long time. It never worked for very long at all, and it was actually a relief to finally stop.

I think you'll find lots of support and information here.

hi and Welcome...:wave:

You too can find a new life of health and joy
Good to see you here with us.

Glad you found us, Welcome :)

Welcome Jho, keep posting and let us know how you are getting on.

Hello and Welcome.

Welcome to SR ;-) All of the best in your recovery, we are all here for you.

Well, I am doing allot of self hatred today. I failed and went back to my old habits last night. I was really set on just going home when some friends texted me to remind me of a "Harley" giveaway at the local pub. I used every excuse I could think of to convince myself I could go and not drink. Nope, didn't work. Before I knew it I was convincing myself that I could just have a few....and then a few became a few more.... well you know the rest. I feel like crap today, but at least I made it to work on time. So today is Day one again:skillet

Keep at it! :)

Howdy and welcome

I think there is still a two week and under thread that might be of interest to you. Just people getting started like yourself.

But so glad you decided to join in here. Good luck on day 1.

Well I am taking the next step. I called my doctor and asked for an appointment. I actually told the nurse on the phone that I was calling asking for help to quit drinking. This is the first time I have admitted it outloud to a real person, other than posting here with my new friends. Tomorrow I see the doctor and I wont lie to him about my problem.