BaldHeadedJohn

Tomorrow's the last day I will drink. I know I've said this before- here and to many others. It's just too much work. I've been lurking around on these forums for a few weeks, trying to decide if I really want to stop drinking, and I find the answer to be "Yes, I do." Many of you have really inspired me to do this.

I have to commit to this. My life is starting to lose all meaning, and I've been down that road before. All I do is work, drink, sleep... day after day.

I have so many hobbies and interests I used to enjoy, but I can't stay sober long enough to do anything constructive.

I'm tired of just existing- i want to live.

Thanks for listening.

BHJ

Bamboozle

Hey John...good for you! I don't know how much you drink, but be aware that detoxing without medical supervision can be life threatening for some. Be aware of the danger signs--give yourself a refresher read of the stickies at the top of the Alcoholism forum. Make sure you don't do this alone. Keep posting here for support.

TryingSoHard

Good for you! I'm excited for you. Keep us posted and check in often. You're 100% right about finding inspiration here.

adore79

Thats great news that you have decided you want to quit!

Dee74

I'm glad you're back and have made this decision John
good luck mate

D

BaldHeadedJohn

I've asked my ex-wife and a friend to call me a few times. I've burned all my bridges at work and don't think in-patient detox is a good idea. I tried a few months ago (June), and while it wasn't a picnic, it wasn't all that bad. I'm prepared to go to the emergency medica center if things get too rough. Thanks for your concern. I appreciate it!

BaldHeadedJohn

WOW!
Thanks to you all.

Hope

This can be the last detox that you have to go through.

Check in often and let us know how you are doing.

Congratulations on deciding to join us on the road to recovery.

We're all here with you!

BaldHeadedJohn

It's embarrassing to admit that I screwed up again. This needs to stop. Drinking is no longer fun or a way to deal with boredom and disapointment. Someone posted a link to the Smart Recovery tool kit and I've been going over a lot of their info. Drinking is no longer a benefit- it's very detrimental to me and and my goals in life.

Hope

Don't beat yourself up. Focus on the future. You have a beautiful life ahead of you. Don't let the guilt of the past take away the joy of hoping for all that is to come in the future. Remember, one day at a time.

nogard

be good to yourself, its part of our journey, keep posting and keep looking at support options

Rowan

Hi John,

I've seen you lurking from time to time, and I'm glad to see you posting, and recommitting to sobriety. I remember that you used to go to AA. Are you open to attending meetings again?
Stay close to others this time, okay? We need you here. You can do this, John.

BaldHeadedJohn

Thanks, Rowan. I knew SOMEBODY would have seen me snooping around!

Rowan

Heh heh - I've had my eye on you!

Anna

Welcome back BaldHeadedJohn,

You can do this and we're here to offer lots of support.

Hevyn

John, this is the same conclusion I came to 7 mos. ago. All the reasons I drank - for the fun, relaxation, excitement - were no longer happening for me. I thought if I intensified my intake it would do something for me again. I went from beer to 100 proof vodka in the end. I was drinking so much I was numb and insane, not ever happy or carefree. I was literally driving myself mad. I've known for years what I had to do, but this last time I felt close to death-afraid to close my eyes at night for fear I wouldn't wake up. This is fun? The days of sipping a few drinks at night are over. If I have one I have 20. Having that many caused me to wake up still drunk (I never had hangovers anymore) and start the whole cycle over again. It was only a matter of time before I killed myself with it, I'm convinced. Dee74 once said to me, "When it's the last time, you know it." I hope you know it, John. I'm so glad you've made this wise decision.

LouLou629

Heres the great news...YOU LOVE YOURSELF ENOUGH TO DO THIS! You should take care of yourself and love yourself, I am really proud of your decision and these forums have helped me immensly. When I feel aggitated and depressed and totally alone and worthless, I come on here and see thats not the case. We all deserve to be happy and feel good, we all have the same disease BUT we have to take the innitiative to cure it. Its hard but your not alone, and you always have a friend on here. Stay strong and remember, that drinking makes you feel like S**t, it must otherwise you wouldnt be here right ?? One day at a time....I am rooting for you

tanyapmc

You CAN do it. Please keep us posted!

least

Hooray for you!! Do'nt beat yourself up over relapsing. I've been trying to quit since last December and have only now learned to "do it right". I've got 46 days sober today and altho I still have problems in my life (who doesn't?)
but I am better able to deal with them when I'm sober.

Just remember: you have to want to be sober more than you want to drink. Also, One Day At A Time. Do'nt regret yesterday or worry excessively about tomorrow. Easy advice to give out, much harder when I try to di it.

I can so identiy with your opening post.

Glad you're here in our clean and sober place! Keep coming back!

:ghug3

CarolD

I sure hope you can find the joy of sobriety John
You deserve health and a positive life.