I'm finished!
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Join Date: Aug 2008
Location: New England
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I'm finished!
I just got home from my last treatment! I can't believe it! I graduated from 4 months in Intensive Outpatient treatment!
It feels so good to finally do something right for a change. For the last 10 years everything I have touched has turned to Sh!t. Finally I am moving in the right direction!
My fellow treatment peers said the nicest things to me when I graduated tonight. I have to admit it is still VERY hard to believe anything GOOD that people say about me. I hope to start forgiving myself and liking myself again soon!
God Bless! :ghug
It feels so good to finally do something right for a change. For the last 10 years everything I have touched has turned to Sh!t. Finally I am moving in the right direction!
My fellow treatment peers said the nicest things to me when I graduated tonight. I have to admit it is still VERY hard to believe anything GOOD that people say about me. I hope to start forgiving myself and liking myself again soon!
God Bless! :ghug
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Join Date: Aug 2008
Location: San Antonio, TX
Posts: 1
en,
Congratulations on such a huge success! I just found this site a few days ago. I relapsed this past weekend after doing so well for many nights. A very close friend of mine recommended I do an outpatient program versus trying to do this on my own - especially since I live alone.
I, too, have the biggest desire to like who I am and will often lose sight of this.
Please let me know how you went about finding this outpatient program. I have a very demanding job and will need to work on my personal issues slowly over the next many months. Meaning I can't afford to take a full week off of work for an in-patient program.
Any advice you could give would be very much appreciated!
Thank you,
Best,
Hailey
Congratulations on such a huge success! I just found this site a few days ago. I relapsed this past weekend after doing so well for many nights. A very close friend of mine recommended I do an outpatient program versus trying to do this on my own - especially since I live alone.
I, too, have the biggest desire to like who I am and will often lose sight of this.
Please let me know how you went about finding this outpatient program. I have a very demanding job and will need to work on my personal issues slowly over the next many months. Meaning I can't afford to take a full week off of work for an in-patient program.
Any advice you could give would be very much appreciated!
Thank you,
Best,
Hailey
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Join Date: Aug 2008
Location: Florida
Posts: 4
Wish my husband was finished!
My husband is back on his codeine addiction and I don't think I can handle it again. He went through w/d lst year and ended up in the hospital. He blames me for everything - is that typical of an addict? He won't allow me to go to the doc's with him so I typed a letter to the doc. But something tells me I'll be in BIG trouble if I mail it. I just want to help him but he sees me as taking his control away. Any suggestions from a former addict?
Thank you!!!
Laura
Thank you!!!
Laura
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Turning it all around
Join Date: Aug 2008
Location: Florida
Posts: 330
Congratulation Jen! 
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That was the tough thing for me...believing other's praise for me. I would aways downgrade the compliment to fit how I felt about myself. I found that happiness is an "inside job". It all starts with YOU. The problem, with abuse, is that we watch ourselves treat our bodies with such destruction that we are slowly convinced of our own dislike. Once free from self-destructive behavior, there is nothing but positivity left. Although it takes time to reprogram, we see ourselves being kind to our bodies and enjoying moments as ourselves. Slowly we are convinced that we do love ourselves. Be patient and enjoy the ride! Prayers
8That was the tough thing for me...believing other's praise for me. I would aways downgrade the compliment to fit how I felt about myself. I found that happiness is an "inside job". It all starts with YOU. The problem, with abuse, is that we watch ourselves treat our bodies with such destruction that we are slowly convinced of our own dislike. Once free from self-destructive behavior, there is nothing but positivity left. Although it takes time to reprogram, we see ourselves being kind to our bodies and enjoying moments as ourselves. Slowly we are convinced that we do love ourselves. Be patient and enjoy the ride! Prayers
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Join Date: Sep 2007
Location: Dayton, Ohio
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YOU ARE A BEAUTIFUL, SPECIAL, CARING, LOVING & THOUGHTFUL LADY WITH SO MUCH TO OFFER TO THIS WORLD!
When I was nearly two years clean and sober, I still had a serious problem with people giving me compliments. I would immediately joke about it, ask them who they were talking about being so caring (for example) because they obviously don't know me very well. Then I realized, I didn't know MYSELF very well. I never saw myself as anything other than a POS. And if someone did say something nice about me, I thought they had a motive for doing it, they obviously wanted something from me.
Addiction takes so many things from us, our self esteem and self worth being just a few of the things we lose on our downward spiral. I remember my Counselor giving me the assignment of looking in the mirror a few times each day and giving myself positive positive affirmations. That was really, really hard at first, telling myself that I am not the piece of dirt I thought I was for so many years.
All those kind words that were said to you . . . they are obviously so true. In time, I hope you will be able to realize that you are a beautiful lady who I know I have "seen" grow in the short time you have been posting here.
And again, congratulations!
Hugs,
Judy
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