Mr H on the road
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Join Date: Nov 2007
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Mr H on the road
Day one.
Feeling a little two faced, seem to just forget about this place and everyone elses problems when im off the wagon. Need to get back into the habit of posting, you all helped me out so much last time im sorry ive been selfish.
Well im back here and staying this time.
I feel like a ghost of myself at the moment, I know the next few days will be testing and hard but i really dont like the face in the mirror.
To top it all, ive just found out im going to be a dad for the second time, i dont want my next child to see me with a drink....ever.
Im at work trying to keep it all together, i know at the end of the day ill crawl to my car, breakdown and cry but i have to keep all this crap inside until then.
wish me luck:sorry
Feeling a little two faced, seem to just forget about this place and everyone elses problems when im off the wagon. Need to get back into the habit of posting, you all helped me out so much last time im sorry ive been selfish.
Well im back here and staying this time.
I feel like a ghost of myself at the moment, I know the next few days will be testing and hard but i really dont like the face in the mirror.
To top it all, ive just found out im going to be a dad for the second time, i dont want my next child to see me with a drink....ever.
Im at work trying to keep it all together, i know at the end of the day ill crawl to my car, breakdown and cry but i have to keep all this crap inside until then.
wish me luck:sorry
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Good luck mate. You can do this, you've been here before. Get this hard part over with and you can get on with recovering and being a good dad to your kids. Congratulations on the news - what a great incentive to stay sober. 
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You can do it!! What a great bhit of motivation to not have your next child see you with drink in hand - and the wonderful thing is that the benefits are so much more than that even! 
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Force Is Strong In This One
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Cheers everyone, i feel awful at the moment, my chest is so tight and im quite panicy. Not the worst its ever been but ive been here before, i wont let these side effects drag me back to drink, i will ride it out
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Congrats on the new baby to be!
And we are always here 24/7 no need to apologize! When you need us we are
here and when you do not that is ok too! What is important is YOU!
Have a plan and keep to it! Believe in yourself that you will get through this
Keep that image of the new little one in your head and it may help you not to
pick up that drink!
Keep us posted
And we are always here 24/7 no need to apologize! When you need us we are
here and when you do not that is ok too! What is important is YOU!
Have a plan and keep to it! Believe in yourself that you will get through this
Keep that image of the new little one in your head and it may help you not to
pick up that drink!
Keep us posted
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As bad as you feel right now, it will pass. Just don't pick up a drink - as you know it's only a temporary fix.
Take the time to cruise around the boards and do some reading - there is a lot of inspiration. Especially take the time to read the stickies at the top - next door in our Alcoholism forum.
Take the time to cruise around the boards and do some reading - there is a lot of inspiration. Especially take the time to read the stickies at the top - next door in our Alcoholism forum.
Force Is Strong In This One
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Thanks Rowan, needed to hear that.
Had a bit of a bad early afternoon, but im getting used to this horibble feeling being withdrawl, i wont reach for a drink, though it did cross my mind earlier.
Had a bit of a bad early afternoon, but im getting used to this horibble feeling being withdrawl, i wont reach for a drink, though it did cross my mind earlier.
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Mr H~
I grew up with two alcoholic parents and an alcoholic stepfather. I know you have to make this commitment to yourself, first and foremost. But I also want to thank you, for your kids' sake for sparing them the agony of living with active alcoholism. Good work!
I grew up with two alcoholic parents and an alcoholic stepfather. I know you have to make this commitment to yourself, first and foremost. But I also want to thank you, for your kids' sake for sparing them the agony of living with active alcoholism. Good work!
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Day Two is here guys wooop!
Didnt think i was going to get through yesterday, but i did it, posting on here really helped and will continue to do so.
Didnt sleep much just sort of entered that half state that comes from drying out, my wife tells me she loves the fact that i dont reek of booze.
Its at times like this when you start to look back on which particular day the slip began and you realise that My God i've been on a slow downward for weeks, it really is a progressive illness and I really have no control over drinking besides from the ultimate control and that is to not touch a drop.
Heard a well used phrase in a TV show the other day "Dont know how many more drying outs ive got in me but i know theres another drink" with this in mind as my guide i go cautiously forward
Thanks
Didnt think i was going to get through yesterday, but i did it, posting on here really helped and will continue to do so.
Didnt sleep much just sort of entered that half state that comes from drying out, my wife tells me she loves the fact that i dont reek of booze.
Its at times like this when you start to look back on which particular day the slip began and you realise that My God i've been on a slow downward for weeks, it really is a progressive illness and I really have no control over drinking besides from the ultimate control and that is to not touch a drop.
Heard a well used phrase in a TV show the other day "Dont know how many more drying outs ive got in me but i know theres another drink" with this in mind as my guide i go cautiously forward
Thanks
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Ahhh.....well nice job Mr.H!! well done. I hope it's easier for you to get through Day 2. Then guess what? day three will be easier, and day 4 and day 5...........
it's only going to get better from here on in. Your kids are very lucky to have you, a Dad who is willing to make this huge change in his life for them.......and I know you want to be around a LONG time for them.
I wish you all the best.
it's only going to get better from here on in. Your kids are very lucky to have you, a Dad who is willing to make this huge change in his life for them.......and I know you want to be around a LONG time for them.
I wish you all the best.
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