My apologies
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You may not feel strong right now... but you are! I remember some of your posts just a couple of weeks ago that were so upbeat and positive. You know what you need to do to get the feeling back again. Why don't you go to a meeting tonight? Have you spoke with your sponsor today? She sounds like a pretty good source of support.
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I don't know that we've chatted. I've been preoccupied with my own "stuff" lately.
When it comes to addiction, everything is related. Tough times call for tough friends. We cannot compartmentalize things and think that the other parts of our life have nothing to do with our vulnerability. I know that only too well.
Do not apologize for what you are feeling and thinking and going through. It is all related.
Because it is all related, there is nothing in your life that drinking won't make worse. I don't care what it is, it will be worse if you drink. Not a person here can name an experience in their lives that was enhanced by getting drunk. One of the very few absolute truths I am aware of.
In my very early sobriety I used this place and writing to occupy my brain that was screaming for alcohol. It really worked for me. Kept me focused. Perhaps it can do the same for you.
Best to you. Good things do come with sobriety. Believe in that. It is worth the struggle.
warren
I don't know that we've chatted. I've been preoccupied with my own "stuff" lately.
When it comes to addiction, everything is related. Tough times call for tough friends. We cannot compartmentalize things and think that the other parts of our life have nothing to do with our vulnerability. I know that only too well.
Do not apologize for what you are feeling and thinking and going through. It is all related.
Because it is all related, there is nothing in your life that drinking won't make worse. I don't care what it is, it will be worse if you drink. Not a person here can name an experience in their lives that was enhanced by getting drunk. One of the very few absolute truths I am aware of.
In my very early sobriety I used this place and writing to occupy my brain that was screaming for alcohol. It really worked for me. Kept me focused. Perhaps it can do the same for you.
Best to you. Good things do come with sobriety. Believe in that. It is worth the struggle.
warren
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Originally Posted by flgirl 
I am remembering some pretty horrible stuff now
I agree about the professional help. A professional can help you aquire the tools to get thru this.
Alcohol is not going to make it any better.... it only numbs for a little while... after that (for me) it was so much worse.
Keep posting!
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I go to two different counselors, one that works for a shrink and one who is a substance abuse counselor. It's a great relief to be able to talk about anything and everything to them.
I pray you can find some peace of mind. And as I just found out, again, drinking will only make it worse.
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I pray you can find some peace of mind. And as I just found out, again, drinking will only make it worse.
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I am hanging on. My sponsor has been great. She has been where I am many times before and does not judge me. I heard her say that before, but did not really listen. She also says that I should not be ashamed, which, of course, I am. I am ashamed of many things. But, I have made it through the day, thus far. I read on another thread that our feelings are not us. That is a new thought for me. I do not have to be what I feel. I would like that.
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You are so right there. You dont have to be what your feeling.
Feelings change so much and they are usually impulsive. And when we act or think on our feelings. Thats usually when we get into trouble.
Never ever and I mean NEVER be sorry for reaching out for help.
Thats what this site is for. Thats why we are all here. To seek and lend support.
If you just sat there and didnt say anything or share what was on your mind. Then I would be worried.
You are not alone and you dont have to do this alone.
Feelings change so much and they are usually impulsive. And when we act or think on our feelings. Thats usually when we get into trouble.
Never ever and I mean NEVER be sorry for reaching out for help.
Thats what this site is for. Thats why we are all here. To seek and lend support.
If you just sat there and didnt say anything or share what was on your mind. Then I would be worried.
You are not alone and you dont have to do this alone.
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Hi Chiy,
I have read what you have posted and am proud of you! The reaching out for help thing is new for me and I hate when I have done something stupid. I should just be able to deal with all this sh*t, right? I know that's why I keep coming back here. Because I recognize that I am gonna have to deal with it all. And there is no way that I am gonn able to to it alone.
I have read what you have posted and am proud of you! The reaching out for help thing is new for me and I hate when I have done something stupid. I should just be able to deal with all this sh*t, right? I know that's why I keep coming back here. Because I recognize that I am gonna have to deal with it all. And there is no way that I am gonn able to to it alone.
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