a new day -- day 3
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a new day -- day 3
After getting frustrated with pictures and strung out, the oreo cookies helped me get to sleep.
this morniing I looked through a box of pictures and did the sorting that i'm doing. I enjoyed looking at my kids and the whole activity. Last night I was a bit frustrated and overwhelmed about the whole thing. I have 2 more boxes to go thro9ugh yet.
where am i emotionally right now? I'm kind've ok. tiredness just came upon me a few minutes after sitting at this computer. I'm a little lonely and feel a little rejection because my girlfriend didn't call me from her vacation yesterday. I left her a message at the end of the night. I'm very sensitive in this getting clean. if I had used last night then I WOULd be glad that she didn't call and hoping that she would not call me this morning. I would be in my own world of survival. Instead I am a little connected with the planet. I am connected with my partner and we will go out and look at a job pretty soon. It's been an easy morning at work and the rest of today might be pretty easy. in other words no work to do.
no work, gives me a lot of free time to think and can be a downfall for me, but it's something that I have to deal with all the time. it sounds nice, and it can be, but it can be challenging and I can get lazy and ambitionless. the good thing is i'm only working 8 hours this week, it's much easier to do nothing for 8 hours than for 10 hours.
looking through the pictures of my 2 boys felt good. I miss the first two houses of my marriage. it felt good to see them in the pictures along with my boys. I got sober in the first house and was sober the entire time in the second house. i was sober for 8 years. there was lot's of struggle, lots of depression, but looking back on them made me feel the happy memories and grattitude for my children and the spiritual gifts they have brought to me and helped me grow.
but my third house (which is now my ex-wife's house), has a lot of bad feelings for me. it is where my addiction to crack began. Our marriage wasn't good, and I fell into depression for 2 years, and was trying real hard to get better, but finally gave in one night and I somehow ended up using.
I gotta go look at job...back later
this morniing I looked through a box of pictures and did the sorting that i'm doing. I enjoyed looking at my kids and the whole activity. Last night I was a bit frustrated and overwhelmed about the whole thing. I have 2 more boxes to go thro9ugh yet.
where am i emotionally right now? I'm kind've ok. tiredness just came upon me a few minutes after sitting at this computer. I'm a little lonely and feel a little rejection because my girlfriend didn't call me from her vacation yesterday. I left her a message at the end of the night. I'm very sensitive in this getting clean. if I had used last night then I WOULd be glad that she didn't call and hoping that she would not call me this morning. I would be in my own world of survival. Instead I am a little connected with the planet. I am connected with my partner and we will go out and look at a job pretty soon. It's been an easy morning at work and the rest of today might be pretty easy. in other words no work to do.
no work, gives me a lot of free time to think and can be a downfall for me, but it's something that I have to deal with all the time. it sounds nice, and it can be, but it can be challenging and I can get lazy and ambitionless. the good thing is i'm only working 8 hours this week, it's much easier to do nothing for 8 hours than for 10 hours.
looking through the pictures of my 2 boys felt good. I miss the first two houses of my marriage. it felt good to see them in the pictures along with my boys. I got sober in the first house and was sober the entire time in the second house. i was sober for 8 years. there was lot's of struggle, lots of depression, but looking back on them made me feel the happy memories and grattitude for my children and the spiritual gifts they have brought to me and helped me grow.
but my third house (which is now my ex-wife's house), has a lot of bad feelings for me. it is where my addiction to crack began. Our marriage wasn't good, and I fell into depression for 2 years, and was trying real hard to get better, but finally gave in one night and I somehow ended up using.
I gotta go look at job...back later
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this website has been good to me today.
reading others' posts has been very helpful for me
this is part of my recovery right now, and i'm gratefull for this site
I'm feeling ok right now. visiting this site has been very comforting for me this morning. I'm very hungry and need to eat some healthy food and recover from the 15 oreo cookies i ate to sleep last night.
reading others' posts has been very helpful for me
this is part of my recovery right now, and i'm gratefull for this site
I'm feeling ok right now. visiting this site has been very comforting for me this morning. I'm very hungry and need to eat some healthy food and recover from the 15 oreo cookies i ate to sleep last night.
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Originally Posted by ksplash5 
I didn't even dunk them. i just put them inside and chewed and drank a big gulp of milk and repeated thus-ly.
We have a couple of things in common. I began drinking again ater 7 years sober and I am felling without ambition today.
One thing we do not have in common is the oreo's. I may be the only person on earth that does not like them.
Oreos and Milk... 
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thank you all.
day 3 is looking to be a sucessful day clean.
with the ups and downs of early sobriety.
and now i feel a little peace and am enjuoying my home all by myself with the 2 dogs and 2 cats and the fish and the b irds outside and the sun setting and the still air outside and the fresh smelling air from a short rain and my computer--allowing me to be here now with the spirit of this forum
day 3 is looking to be a sucessful day clean.
with the ups and downs of early sobriety.
and now i feel a little peace and am enjuoying my home all by myself with the 2 dogs and 2 cats and the fish and the b irds outside and the sun setting and the still air outside and the fresh smelling air from a short rain and my computer--allowing me to be here now with the spirit of this forum
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