Hate to say it...But...I Fell...
 

No one to blame but myself...I talked myself into it, must of had a hundred reason why I needed a drink...I went out to eat and the next thing I know I am at a bar...

Goods news, if there is any is..I some how stuck to beer (was thinking Jack)..

And I got a ride home, I punished myself by walking all the way back to my truck this morning first thing 6:00am (had to while it's only 84 out, high will be 109 today).

My right knee is killing me...need to get it checked...

All I can say is...I have no control, day 12 to day 0....in pain...feel like crap...major guilt

Ok...I will get a little cheese with that whine....

Thanks for listening!

:sorry I really am "Sorry" as in a sorry sapp!

Today is a new day. Just keep coming back. :)

Can happen to anyone brother - Just learn from it and move forward!

Ask yourself a question though; what could I have done differently to avoid this in the future? Call your sponsor, a sober friend, go to more meetings, etc.

Dave

(Thisistheday)

At least you came back here - and thanks for being honest about slipping. Now it's behind you and you're on the road again!! and we're right here with you.

Just glad nothing happened and you made it home ok - and you should go get your knee checked out - hope it feels better. I'm out for a few hours (work a second job on Saturdays, lucky me:))
but i'll be back later today. Stay strong - you've been great with the advice for me and helping me out - hopefully I can now return the favor.

laterskater

You're being honest & open about it - that's great! You're a work in progress just like the rest of us. I fell many times before my final fall in January. Keep marching on, we're with you.

I have found sobriety to be up and down. Today is a new day! It took courage to come back and tell us. I hope you feel better today.... Stay inside with the A/C. 109!

:Flower:

Good for you for admitting it. That takes strength. Forgive yourself.

One is never enough, and 1000 too many.

Hi TITD! Don't be too hard on yourself! You made it 12 days! You just had one evening and you CAME BACK HERE! That's what is important. You haven't given up. Forgive yourself and start again.

And now...lucky me! You get to hang out with me in the under 2 week thread for just a bit longer!

Glad you came back!

:ghug3

Glad you made it home....and did not drive.

Many of us had false starts on our way to recovery.
Do you have a new plan?

:hug:

Yeah, you made a good decision to not drive.

So...learn from what happened last night and it won't have to happen again.

sober, one day at a time...again and again and again and again and....

Thanks everyone for the encouragement to pick myself up & move forward!

I have to tell you...It was very strange, like a switch flipped and no willpower at all...

I went to meet some friends and then next thing I know, there's a beer in front of me.
I guess my days of going to bars, are over! For the last 12 days I pretty much sat home...except for the day I went to the meeting/ happy hour & had such good control... I also need to sit at a table when going out to eat...not at the bar as usual. I guess I need to change everything...not as strong as I thouhgt I was.

WOW, I really hate hangovers...how fast depression sets in...mentally beating yourself up on a Saturday is just a complete waste!!!

Well I really need to focus on one day at a time and put together a better plan this time.
I am really thankful to have SR to come back to...you guy are all the best..Thanks agian!

Oh ya, I guess I need to change my Avatar!

Just a little bump in the road This. Dust yourself off and let's get back too it. As the great John Wayne would say: "We're burning daylight"!!!!!

Glad you came back here and really glad you had the sense to not drive home from the bar. Dust yourself off and start again. A lot of us had/have to try over and over til we finally get it right. You can do this. :ghug3

Hi This...
been awhile since you've updated here - thinking of you and hope you're doing ok.

hang in there!!!!!!!

Thank You Krista....and thank's to all, on SR...!!!

Yes, It has been a while...well not talk about this time...
Thank you all...Sunday...Father's will be a new start for me!