You Know I Was Just Thinking(i Know I Shouldn't Do That)
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You Know I Was Just Thinking(i Know I Shouldn't Do That)
GOOD MORNING FAMILY.
YOU KNOW I WAS JUST THINKING(I KNOW I SHOULDN'T DO THAT)THE MOST PRECIOUS TIMES TO ME IS CONVERSATING WITH MY CHILDREN CLEAN/SOBER. LAST NIGHT I TALKED WITH MY 15 YEAR OLD SON, AND HE SAID,"MOMMA SO YOU CAN'T EVEN GO TO A PARTY AND JUST DRINK?" "FROM MY EXPERIENCES NO I CAN'T" I SAID. 12 YEARS AGO I WENT TO MY FIRST TREATMENT CENTER AND MY CONSELOR TOLD ME IN ORDER FOR ME TO MAINTAIN MY RECOVERY I HAD TO NOT PUT ANY MIND-MOOD ALTERING SUBSTANCES INTO MY BODY AND DO YOU KNOW I WASN'T TRYIN TO HEAR THAT; I WAS IN TOTAL DENIAL. SO FOR THE NEXT COUPLE OF YEARS I STARTED DRINKING AND MY DISEASE PROGRESSED. I REALLY THOUGHT MY CONSELOR WAS JUST TRYIN TO RUIN MY LIFE. WELL GUESS WHAT FOR SOME REASON ONE DAY I READ THE BIG BOOK,AND IT SAYS IT IN THERE ALSO. ALONG WITH STORIES OF OTHER RECOVERING ADDICTS/ALCOHOLICS THAT LIVE BY THAT STANDARD. ANYWAYS, I ALSO WAS FEELING LIKE SOME KIND OF HYPERCRITE BY SUGGESTING TO MY SON TO NOT GET INVOLVED WITH DRUGS/ALCOHOL. YOU KNOW I'VE EARNED MY SON'S TRUST BACK AND USUALLY BREAK IT AGAIN. THESE EMOTIONS OF MINE ARE REAL AND I'M ACTUALLY TALKING ABOUT IT. WHERE I AM AT NOW IS DEALING WITH THE PAIN I'VE CAUSED MY FAMILY. BUT STILL DEVOTED TO MY #1 RULE THAT NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS I DON'T GET TO GET HIGH/DRUNK.
WELL FAMILY THAT'S ALL I HAVE THANKS FOR BEING APART OF MY RECOVERY
YOU KNOW I WAS JUST THINKING(I KNOW I SHOULDN'T DO THAT)THE MOST PRECIOUS TIMES TO ME IS CONVERSATING WITH MY CHILDREN CLEAN/SOBER. LAST NIGHT I TALKED WITH MY 15 YEAR OLD SON, AND HE SAID,"MOMMA SO YOU CAN'T EVEN GO TO A PARTY AND JUST DRINK?" "FROM MY EXPERIENCES NO I CAN'T" I SAID. 12 YEARS AGO I WENT TO MY FIRST TREATMENT CENTER AND MY CONSELOR TOLD ME IN ORDER FOR ME TO MAINTAIN MY RECOVERY I HAD TO NOT PUT ANY MIND-MOOD ALTERING SUBSTANCES INTO MY BODY AND DO YOU KNOW I WASN'T TRYIN TO HEAR THAT; I WAS IN TOTAL DENIAL. SO FOR THE NEXT COUPLE OF YEARS I STARTED DRINKING AND MY DISEASE PROGRESSED. I REALLY THOUGHT MY CONSELOR WAS JUST TRYIN TO RUIN MY LIFE. WELL GUESS WHAT FOR SOME REASON ONE DAY I READ THE BIG BOOK,AND IT SAYS IT IN THERE ALSO. ALONG WITH STORIES OF OTHER RECOVERING ADDICTS/ALCOHOLICS THAT LIVE BY THAT STANDARD. ANYWAYS, I ALSO WAS FEELING LIKE SOME KIND OF HYPERCRITE BY SUGGESTING TO MY SON TO NOT GET INVOLVED WITH DRUGS/ALCOHOL. YOU KNOW I'VE EARNED MY SON'S TRUST BACK AND USUALLY BREAK IT AGAIN. THESE EMOTIONS OF MINE ARE REAL AND I'M ACTUALLY TALKING ABOUT IT. WHERE I AM AT NOW IS DEALING WITH THE PAIN I'VE CAUSED MY FAMILY. BUT STILL DEVOTED TO MY #1 RULE THAT NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS I DON'T GET TO GET HIGH/DRUNK.
WELL FAMILY THAT'S ALL I HAVE THANKS FOR BEING APART OF MY RECOVERY
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Thanks so much for sharing this...
Communicating with our children is key, ESPECIALLY when we've been through this ourselves imho. Painful, but extremely important.
My four kids are between 12 and 18, so between what they see on t.v., here at home, and in school -- opening up about sobriety vs. addiction's a MUST.
Communicating with our children is key, ESPECIALLY when we've been through this ourselves imho. Painful, but extremely important.
My four kids are between 12 and 18, so between what they see on t.v., here at home, and in school -- opening up about sobriety vs. addiction's a MUST.
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