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Hi - someone once said we should label our threads that way if we weren't willing to "take it".

So I can't take it right now. I am feeling lonely and depressed. I don't have any desire to drink....but it sucks.

I have friends. I'm lonely anyways. I have a bunch of stuff to do and I am going to start working at it now. Nothing has fallen so badly appart it can't be easily fixed. I am feeling sorry for myself and I know it. When it gets like this I don't want to reach out because I know its self pity and I don't even know why i feel sorry for myself. Frustrated. Angry. Scared. Sad.

So I'll go through the motions. Still reach out to be of service to others. Pay the bills, clean the house, work on the yard. order the liturature. go to the meeting. go to the coffee group. do my 10th, and 11th step work. This feeling will go away.

I feel like i'm the most ungrateful and self centered person in the world. I'm pouting around through my threads. Decided I just need to come clean and admit I'm being a poop head and maybe if I just say it out loud it will stop being so powerful.

Thanks for all of you not being poops at me when I get like this.:sorry

Some days just suck Nands. Nothing wise to say so just sending a :ghug3

((((ananda)))) Hugs and prayers for you today Ananda!

You are not alone, 'Nanda... *hug*

Take a walk outside, listen to some birds sing... Breath in deeply that sweet air of Freedom...

As you said, your melancholy will pass... Be there for it, ready to embrace life when the sadness does pass, for pass it will... And when it does, you'll be there, smiling and ready to kick some butt again!

You are not alone!

I don't call it ungrateful and self centered, I call it being depressed. You don't need to apologize, I understand and I've been there too, still there too often. Sometimes it just sucks, doesn't it? I think it's a good thing that you're posting your feelings instead of drowning them! That's what we're here for, ya know, to encourage and hug you when are discouraged and can't hug yourself.

We all need someone we can lean on, so if you want to, you can lean on me.

:ghug3:ghug3

Thanks guys - I feel a little better already....picked up some trash and went outside (since that's where some of it is).

I still keep crying for no reason I can see. But I think I probably need that right now. If nothing else it releases the tension.

:ghug

Ok - i'm more like crying during that group hug thing....but I don't think they have one that looks like that!

Ananda, feeling negative emotions does not make you self-centered it makes you human!

We all have bad days...days when our emotions are all over the place. I would be willing to bet that even non- alcoholics have days like that! lol

I try very hard to make sure I remember that not everything in my life has to do with alcoholism, so much of life and its ups and downs is just part of being human.

Hey! How come you didnt 'thank' my post, Ananda? :09:

ooops - i didn't see it! thats what happens when your self centered.

:Val004:

LOL
:hug:

My sense of humor is coming back....I've picked up alot of trash and have stopped crying. Thanks for the support.

wow - that realy bad part only lasted about an hour!

Hi Ananda,

Sometimes just accepting the way you feel, is a good place to start. Try to not judge your feelings, remember the feelings are not 'you'. Recognize the feelings, feel them, and then let them go.

I hope you continue to feel better as they days goes on.

A little late....but a big hug for later if ya need it!

:ghug2

Is it tickle time yet? -tickle- -tickle- :)

Poopy? Well I for one don't think you're stinky at all. :lmao:

Take care of yourself today sweety!!!

Suzette

Go down to the Follies Forum.....:laughing:

Wear red...Dance around the room...Spray on perfume
Wear shiny jewelry ...Put on make up....Eat ice cream
A bubble bath with a scented candle and soothing music
Call your best friend....Sit in the sunlight Pray

My tips for kicking the blues.

Great advice, Carol! I did a little while ago, caught one about Christopher Titus and his Dad's DUI, and spent the last 1 1/2 hours laughing my *ss off at youtube watching Christopher Titus' Norman Rockwell is Bleeding. If anyone had told me a week ago that I'd not be drinking and that I'd be laughing, I would have said they were nuts! :bounce

Thanks - youre all so nice! I'm heading for the follies in a minite. I paid my bills and that is helping too.:Val004:

Yes Gr Tea - tickles are allowed! :ghug2

I always think that icon looks more like a group of gigglers!

You just described how I felt 3 days ago.... but today is a better day! So tomorrow might be your better day! Best wishes for a wonderful afternoon!