Milestone for me!
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Milestone for me!
Well, it is 6 days. One week ago, I asked for prayers! I was so tired of it all, and so afraid. Thank you all!
The week prior, I had 5 days. Previous to that, I had 4.
I feel great, I pray every night and every morning to have my desire to drink removed, and so far, so good!
I love this forum, and I could NEVER have made it this far without reading your stories of success and failure, and receiving your thoughts and prayers.
The weird thing is that I like feeling that I am doing something positive for myself, instead of beating myself up every moment of the day, telling myself that I am worthless, a loser, and defective.
I am none of those, and every day, I realize it more. It is an odd feeling to start liking myself, and I ran from it at first, (hence the re-starts of Day 1's), but, it's pretty cool. I am starting to like it. Never thought I'd say that!
I am so proud to be a part of this community! It has changed my life.
Love
Honu:ghug
The week prior, I had 5 days. Previous to that, I had 4.
I feel great, I pray every night and every morning to have my desire to drink removed, and so far, so good!
I love this forum, and I could NEVER have made it this far without reading your stories of success and failure, and receiving your thoughts and prayers.
The weird thing is that I like feeling that I am doing something positive for myself, instead of beating myself up every moment of the day, telling myself that I am worthless, a loser, and defective.
I am none of those, and every day, I realize it more. It is an odd feeling to start liking myself, and I ran from it at first, (hence the re-starts of Day 1's), but, it's pretty cool. I am starting to like it. Never thought I'd say that!
I am so proud to be a part of this community! It has changed my life.
Love
Honu:ghug
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I know that one slip...one negative thought...one moment of self pity....can land me right back into a "Day 1" again....
I am more proud of my numbers increasing, than I am interested in going back to square one, than feeling the self-loathing, shame, and humiliation again.
I won't say it won't happen, but I will say, that right now, it's not happening. It's one day at a time, and I pray I never get ahead of myself, for that's also when the stinking thinking creeps in.....
Tomorrow is another day, and then there's the next tomorrow. Right now, the focus is on 6. YEAH!
Honu
I am more proud of my numbers increasing, than I am interested in going back to square one, than feeling the self-loathing, shame, and humiliation again.
I won't say it won't happen, but I will say, that right now, it's not happening. It's one day at a time, and I pray I never get ahead of myself, for that's also when the stinking thinking creeps in.....
Tomorrow is another day, and then there's the next tomorrow. Right now, the focus is on 6. YEAH!
Honu
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OMG!!! I made a mistake!!!! TODAY IS DAY 7!!
I can't even count! Guess I've damaged too many elementary math brain cells!!!
WooHoo! 7 days! I know I'm patting myself on the back, but, I have just never been here before, and I am so pleased.
Bear with me. I'll be down off of my perch in a few minutes...
Honu
I can't even count! Guess I've damaged too many elementary math brain cells!!!
WooHoo! 7 days! I know I'm patting myself on the back, but, I have just never been here before, and I am so pleased.
Bear with me. I'll be down off of my perch in a few minutes...
Honu
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Join Date: Sep 2007
Location: Dayton, Ohio
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Great Mistake Honu!!
Welcome to Recovery
Beautiful feeling, isn' it?
I hope you are setting up a Program of Recovery. Have you tried any AA Meetings? The main reason I suggest this, especially to newcomers is so you can meet others in Recovery and build up a support system so when you get a little "squirrly" which will happen sooner or later, you have phone numbers and friends who understand what you're going through.
Although SR is a great ingredient in a recipe for Recovery, you need to have someone to reach right away when that stinking thinking begins to talk to you.
Keep reading and sharing and remember, One Day at A Time!
God Bless,
Judy
Welcome to Recovery
Beautiful feeling, isn' it?
I hope you are setting up a Program of Recovery. Have you tried any AA Meetings? The main reason I suggest this, especially to newcomers is so you can meet others in Recovery and build up a support system so when you get a little "squirrly" which will happen sooner or later, you have phone numbers and friends who understand what you're going through.
Although SR is a great ingredient in a recipe for Recovery, you need to have someone to reach right away when that stinking thinking begins to talk to you.
Keep reading and sharing and remember, One Day at A Time!
God Bless,
Judy
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Join Date: Feb 2008
Location: Golden, CO
Posts: 1,243
Honu,
There is such a huge difference in you from when you first started posting! You are making wonderful progress and you deserve to pat yourself on the back as much as you want. And here's a virtual pat from me!
Well, I couldn't find a pat on the back so here's some applause instead. You deserve it!
- MLE
There is such a huge difference in you from when you first started posting! You are making wonderful progress and you deserve to pat yourself on the back as much as you want. And here's a virtual pat from me!
Well, I couldn't find a pat on the back so here's some applause instead. You deserve it!
- MLE
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