flgirl

I made it to today, and felt so horrible from anxiety and panic that I bought a bottle of wine. I have had 1 glass. Just poured the rest down the drain. I guess the good news is that I haven't finished off a bottle or two. It feels good to tell somebody that.

nandm

Sometimes it takes just putting one foot in front of the other and eventually we find things getting better. Good job pouring the rest of the bottle out. That was a good step forward.

Rowan

I'm glad you poured it down the drain. I'm also glad you came here and ratted yourself out. Next time, if you can, pick an activity the next time you get a craving. Phone someone, brush your teeth, eat something, go for a walk, do a crossword, anything to occupy yourself. Cravings are very strong, I know, but they don't actually last that long. Don't give up!

kj3880

Will you be trying an AA meeting today?
KJ

Rella927

Keep going forward! Glad you let it out...that is what we are here for! And yes finding something to do like Rowan said is an awesome idea!

Anna

Hi,

It's hard to get through each hurdle, but each time you do, you gain strength.

It's worth the hard work in order to live a sober life!

flgirl

I have decided not to beat myself up over this. The way I see it, 1 glass is a heck of a lot better than several bottles. Shouldn't have poured the glass in the first place, but maybe baby steps are better than no steps at all.

WendyS

Great attitude!! You don't need to beat yourself up over it at all. They always say 'one day at a time' sometimes it's more like 5 minutes at a time. Rowan is right on, the cravings will always pass, and each time you get through them without drinking, you get stronger and stronger.
I am so proud of you for fessing up and taking the positive step of putting it down!!!
Hang in there!

flgirl

WendyS,

Right now it's more like 1 minute at a time. I thank you all for your support!

PupMum

Per my calculations, you are now early Wed morning for day 1. I am just ending my day 1 Wed night in New Zealand. Well done on pouring rest of bottle down the sink. Tried to do that last night but could not get myself to the sink. Tonight am sloshing from all the tea and water I have drunk.
I told two friends that I was back to day 1 again. One was so shocked I felt I should be flattered by her confidence in my personal strength. Although she was v impressed that I have made appointment to see someone at Addiction Centre on Monday. Other who was talking about joining me in abstaining sent text saying "Gah!" which I have decided not to interpret!!!
Hugs