Negative Man

Least. You're not a loser. You're an addict (like we all on here are), and you deserve help.

You may be right: Your life maybe can't get worse. But it can get better! Much better. Everyone has to hit their bottom. Push hard on it, and come back to the surface. One day at a time.

Do us a favor? Get through this day. If not for yourself, that's okay. Do it for us. We would really miss you on here. Keep posting.

-- NM

least

you're right, you're all right. It was the depression talking. it was the alcohol talking. but still don't know how I can handle all these setbacks. I'll try again. honest.

barb dwyer

one day at a time that's how.

one THING at a time.

********{least}}}}}

do you need help organizing what needs to be done? is that it?

best

With us standing beside you and dealing with things one at a time, one day at a time.
Some of us have been in situations that you would never even think possible but we made it out. You will also.
Your not alone in this. There is help and support all around you.

That is how we all do it. Keep trying and it will happen.

barb dwyer

*posts the world's WORST organizer*
but a world CLASS 'prioritizer' ...

supernothing

least i am here for you , if you want to chat on msn ill give you my address.
Please dont feel so bad, YOU CAN turn this around my friend, and youve proven you can and WANT to do this.
All my thoughts are with you.

TigerLili

((((Least)))) I'm sorry you feel so bad. It must be very hard. I have a pet too and she keeps me hanging in there. I have been on anti-depression meds in the past but I had to come off as they actually made me MORE depressed the second time I went on them, plus my dr thinks I have bi-polar II and anti-dep meds can cause problems there as well. I hope you go and talk to your dr about your meds and that you are able to talk to someone IRL very soon.

least

woke up with a splitting headache (i deserve it) and in withdrawals (i deserve that too) and determined to start over. i'm shaking like a leaf in a high wind and feel like death warmed over. daughter is so disappointed in me, but not as much as i'm disappointed in myself. don't know how i'll get thru the day but i will try. i'm sorry to be such a loser. i deserve to feel this bad, i deserve to feel worse.

Impurrfect

((((Least))))

As I got caught up on this thread, my heart was in my throat at the way you were sounding. I know I can't control anything you do, but I was really scared for you. I didn't take an easy breath 'til I read your most recent post.

You have a lot of friends here and most of us have been in pretty much the same place you are now, at least once.

It's hard as hell to get used to dealing with feelings and emotions, when we've numbed them for so long. But it really does get better. 14 months ago, I was where you are. Had a bottle of tylenol all ready...was going to wash it down with liquor, but I couldn't do it. I lurked here for MONTHS before signing on and actually joining this wonderful group of people.

Today, I am still struggling with finances, legal issues, and quite a few complications of when I was using. But I also have so much to be grateful for! I've said this here before, but the first time I made a gratitude list, I wasn't feeling too grateful. So I thought, and thought, and realized I was pretty darn grateful for my soft bed and pillow....they are anything BUT soft in jail! From there, the list got a little longer. My cats are always near the top of the list.

You CAN do this, and you deserve to have joy in your life.

Hugs and prayers!

Amy

least

please don't leave me i'm afraid of being alone

Impurrfect

Sweetie, you're not alone. When I've come here, totally stressed or frustrated, it was usually in the wee hours of the morning. Some people were here, but not as many as during the day. I went and read other posts in the various forums, and it helped me a lot. I found people who were worse off for me, better off than me, and pretty much in the same boat.

I'll be around for a while....just got off work and not sleepy yet, so we can post here, or you can pm me, or if you want my e-mail just let me know, okay?

Hugs and prayers!

Amy

least

the withdrawals are so bad i'm gong to the er. my mom is mad at me for calling her but she's comeing to take me there i'm sorry

barb dwyer

you don't have to apologize for taking care of yourself, least.

get yourself looked after. it's the right thing to do.

stone

Yea, sounds like a good idea hun.

Impurrfect

I'm glad you're going. Like Barb said, there's no need to apologize for taking care of yourself.

And by the way, you're not going to the ER alone...we're sending good thoughts along with you.

Jomey

Hope the ER waiting room is awfully big and has lots of coffee....because we'll ALL be there with you, hon. For real. You are not alone. Love, Jomey

Tazman53

Least do what you have to do, you know you are not alone, you have us here at SR and you have a phone as well.

least

spent a couple hours at er. gave me a shot of ativan to calm me down and a scrip for enough to get thru the next few days, i'm going to bed now. will post more later.

thank you all for your love and support.:ghug2

Tazman53

Thanks for letting us know all is well for now, now is the time for action, recovery action!!

hope45

Hi Least (I really wish you'd change that name!). This is the first chance I've had to get on the computer and check on you. I'm so proud of you for hanging in there and getting in to the ER. Thanks for letting us know how you are. Get some rest! :ghug3