Hope

Ironically, at the meeting there was talk on triggers.

Well, you know what. I just had a major trigger. Anger is my biggest trigger.

I am through the roof angry. It's more like something I did to screw things up with a person I care about. I was wrong to do what I did. Over me and my stupid mouth and saying impulsive things.

I am seriously thisclose to drinking and throwing away my almost 7 months of sobriety. I think I'm blinded by hurt and anger right now but I don't feel like I care about sobriety at this moment. I just want to drink and escape for one day. Ugh, I hate this. I'm so angry and hurt right now.

NOMOMERLOTMAMMA

Hope,

It won't help. You know it won't. Pray!!!!

suki44883

DO NOT DRINK! Call your sponsor or another sober friend and TALK. You can get through this. Think of how terrible you will feel tomorrow if you do relapse tonight. Nothing is worth throwing away 7 months of sobriety. Nothing! :praying

Surlyredhead

I agree, don't do it!!! It will only make things 100 times worse, you can get through this, focus on the positive, we are here for you.

Cathy

Done_With_It

Hope?

Um? What? Would? Drinking? Do? to improve your situation...

Your talking totally irrationally right now.....

Talk to yourself like you were last night, not like you did a year ago..

Come on girl, get with it..

Done_With_It

Hi,

My name is Hope, and I have one day clean..

Done_With_It

If you drink, that is what you have to look forward to tomorrow.

Freedom1990

There's nothing so bad that a drink won't make it worse.

Hope

Yeah, I don't want to start over again.


Grrr.. I'm so mad right now. I'm totally not thinking rationally. That's why I don't want to make a choice when I'm not rational then have to pay for it tomorrow.

this sucks.

Hope

I have not felt like this in a *long* time.

LosingmyMisery

You know what it is you need to do, Cheryl. You have dealt with this before. It is your choice. So what is it going to be? Take a deep breath and do the right thing for YOU.

least

I've only got 33 days sober but have been tempted to 'escape' a few times recently. But I'm so pleased that I've made it this far that I really don't want to throw my sober days down the drain.

Please withstand the temptation. You know you don't REALLY want to drink, you only want to escape. Talk yourself out of it. Pray yourself out of it. The temptation won't last forever, but regret seems to last a very long time.

:ghug3

Done_With_It

It's what Recovery is about.

Think of it as a challenge. A new way, it does not have to suck.
It's just a part of life. You can make this situation into whatever you want
it to be Hope.
A chance to grow, or a relapse.

You have the Power to make it whatever you want it to be.
You know this

Hope

*breathe*

I need to do that to calm down. In all of my anger, I was almost not even giving myself a chance to breathe.

Hope

It hurts so bad

Hope

These posts are really helping. It's the voice of reason in the midst of whatever this is I'm going through.

Hope

I don't want to give up my recovery. So I will do anything necessary to keep myself calm and get through this tonight.

I choose to stay sober tonight. It's just going to hurt the whole way through it.

Done_With_It

It's okay to hurt. We can get through pain. Trust me, I did it most recently really well.

serenityqueen

Hope

I thought that was great how you handled what you went through Done.

And you got through it.

I'll get through this too.