Bottoms Part 66
Im not crazy and neither am I
Join Date: Nov 2006
Location: My place in (M)Assachusetts
Posts: 2,088
There always used to be Dead Shows to adjust the attitude.
It was my reality check that although wasnt all reality I certainly felt better after a show. That was when life was good. I dont want to drink but I sure as hell would smoke if the opportunity presented itself. I just dont want to FEEL anymore today. I am being dragged - kicking and screaming to a sober bonfire by a guy who has alot of recovery and used to be a substance abuse counselor so maybe that will help.
Maybe next week if I havent gone insane and gotten myself locked up for a 72 hour watch I will stangle my therapist and psych Dr........
It was my reality check that although wasnt all reality I certainly felt better after a show. That was when life was good. I dont want to drink but I sure as hell would smoke if the opportunity presented itself. I just dont want to FEEL anymore today. I am being dragged - kicking and screaming to a sober bonfire by a guy who has alot of recovery and used to be a substance abuse counselor so maybe that will help.
Maybe next week if I havent gone insane and gotten myself locked up for a 72 hour watch I will stangle my therapist and psych Dr........
Luckily, my "room" while I'm staying here is the basement guest room. Complete with cable TV and hard-wired internets.
Thanks, Dee. Now I'm going to have the Wicked Witch of the West music in my head all night.
Thanks, Dee. Now I'm going to have the Wicked Witch of the West music in my head all night.
* whatever hunkered means.
You are right stoney. It is your business BUT you do realise that in a clingy sort of way, it is our business too. You see, we all care for you. I hate to see you suffer and the suffering is caused by drinking and the drinking has got to go! You know how to do it. There's a little more than just not drinking. I mean... you have to change something. Don't go to AA but do something! Work on that Buddhism stuff... since you help turn me on to it I'm spending a lot of time and energy reading and learning about it. Energy that doesn't go well with thoughts (much less doing) of drinking. Of course it doesn't have to be Buddhism, or meditation or yoga for you but you need to change what you're doing and you know it. Maybe not what you're doing exactly... change how you respond to stress, pain and disappointment. The obvious is DON'T drink over it of course. Having something more to comfort yourself is necessary though because the alcohol is doing anything but.
Did I mention that I care for you ?
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