hope45

Then -

10:00 p.m. - crawl into bed and pass out within seconds.
2:00 a.m. - jerk awake, heart pounding parched with thirst. Lie there for next two hours wishing I could go back to sleep and wishing even more desperately that I would stop drinking so much.
4:00 a.m. - finally fall asleep again.
5:30 a.m. - husband gets up to go running. Silently curse him for waking me up.
6:15 a.m. - wake up again. First thought is "oh sh*&%.". Stagger into bathroom and recoil in horror as I catch sight of puffy face. Get day started complete with yelling at kids repeatedly to hurry up, growling at anyone near me ... and so the day began.

Now -
10:00 p.m. - go to bed and fall asleep.
5:30 a.m. - vaguely hear husband get up. Roll over and go back to sleep immediately.
6:15 a.m. - wake up, stretch, lie there feeling happy for a while and get up. Face looks pretty darn good in the mirror. Get day started with no (OK, well only a little) yelling or growling and here I am!

16 days and counting!

tennis71

Nice change isn't it!

Anna

Good for you Hope!

It does feel good to do the right things every day.

BUTTERFLY-7

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melwilson

FANTASTIC!

I think we can all relate to the "then" portion.....

Dean62

Nice turnaround hope. Congratulations on 16 days and thank you for sharing the difference sobriety is making in your life.

ImJulie

Lily

That's awesome Hope! keep it up!!!! Sheila

gravity

Thanks Hope. This is a great reminder of some of the things that I tend to take for granted after some sober time. Those nights & mornings...ugh!

Great work on 16 days!