Ananda

Lost - it's ok to be scared, I was so scared for so long. I finally had to simply walk through it. For me it was leaving my home and going to a treatment center....about as different as different could be from where I was.

I walked around like a zomby...but it got easier. Coming home to my home sober was just as scary...waiting for the axe to fall in every area of my life.

But others supported me (from AA) and I walked through it one minite at a time.

Today that fear seems a lifetime ago...except for occational moment. When afraid, I know I have people to call and places to go that may not eliminate the fear...but will give me hope to go on.

Hang in there!:ghug3

barb dwyer

hey lost -

how'd the meeting go? didn't you have another one tonight?

indigo

Yes it's ok to be scared, jsut walk through it as ananda suggested. And also will you be going to the next meeting?

indie

lostnspain

There isnt another meeting tell monday night. There isn´t any meetings on Saturday and Sunday. I didnt get anyones cell number to call. I have another day..tomorrow is Monday.
If Im sleeping Im ok. I couldnt sleep last night. I took sleeping pills and I still could´nt sleep. I laid a awake trying not to think.
My emotions are up and down. When I feel ok...I know it´s not going to last long. It is only a matter of time. and I go to that dark place.