1is2Many

Today is my 7th day. This day last week, I drank 2 Pints of Whiskey,smoked 2 packs of cigarettes, and ate the most unhealthy food I could get my drunken hands on.

In this 6+ days Ive:
*Went to the docter (had to because of Vertigo) and set up a date for a full checkup/blood workup.
*Started takingvitamins( B Complex, Mens daily,Fish,flax,Borage)
*Cut back my smoking dramatically. I smoked 5 yesterday, when normally I smoke 30-40.
*Joined the Gym.
*bought gym clothes.
* I walked for 30 minutes yesterday(1st day I felt decent).
*stopped by the local AA clubhouse, got a meeting schedule and talked to another Alcoholic.
*Have started eating healthier (not perfect, but better)

I am really trying to take it easy, but I only seem to have 2 gears, Full Speed and Off.
I'm feeling decent today, which is better than I was feeling. My brain is foggy, my wife is finishing a lot of my sentences. My train of thought keeps jumping the tracks.

I'm thankful for being back in the game. Today I feel like Ive got a chance, and that's all I prayed for laying in bed at 2am cursing myself and alcohol, only to awake to seek another drink.

I'm thankful for this forum, cause even if nobody reads this or gives a damn, its made me feel better.

sugErspun

Good job getting your feet moving.

You never have to drink again if you don't want to. It's true.

Jfanagle

Extreme,

I read your post and believe me I do give a damn. You will find there are more folks than you can count who also not only give a damn, but have walked where you are walking.

By the way, walking (literally) was a huge help to me in the beginning. I SUGGEST that you get actively involved in AA and use those folks to draw the strength from, as you will need someone to lean on as you walk through the days ahead.

Don't drink, go to AA, and keep your goal of a new and better life at the fore front as you face each day.

Welcome,
Jon

Emimily

progress! that's SO awesome... man! i remember early sobriety, and starting to feel again and all those things... yeah, it's a miracle for sure. keep on rockin and rollin, and definitely check out some meetings.

this is so good to hear! i'm happy for you...

Anna

Wow, it sounds like you are making lots of changes for the good.

I am glad it's going so well for you.

And, yes, I give a damn too.

1is2Many

Thanks.
AA is a must. I'm going to a meeting this evening.
I'm trying to take things slow, but I'm somewhat under the gun. My wife is due April 22nd *gulp*..

CarolD

You are moving right along..Super!

Congratulations on your new life
and blessings to your wfe and baby to be.

1is2Many

Welp, yesterday I was super productive, yard work, house work, made a 6:30am meeting, went for a long walk, felt ALIVE.
Today(day 10), I'm glued to the couch, and feel angry and depressed. I did go to a meeting at least.

I know my body and mind are still healing so I'm not alarmed. I'm just trying to not let my highs get manic, and my "blue" days become dispair.

I am very gratful that I am aware enough to have moods. Anyway, just want to stay plugged in, here.
I play on the computer a lot at night, and this is a much better way to spend my time.

reed

Sounds ok to me. Just try to stay relatively blanced, ya know...

1is2Many

I'm trying, brother.
I've cut way back on my smoking, and eating a little better, but I'm not stressing excess in those areas. I'm putting sobriety 1st, and putting the other **** on the back burner.
Balance is something Ive always desired, but never had. I'm working on it, though.