Slipped
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Slipped
Yes, I slipped, and I'm not going to rationalize it. I am slipping right now in fact. I am posting this because I can't lie, I have many defects but dishonesty is not one of them. And to be completely honest: I wanted this, there was no struggle, I knew what I was doing. Stubborn I guess. I have no regrets except for one. Maybe I'll feel differently later on. I'll be hanging around because it's most definitely not over. Thanks to you I have tasted a bit of real sobriety.
Thanks guys + gals. Love to you all,
Matt
Thanks guys + gals. Love to you all,
Matt
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
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hey Matt
if it was easy, we wouldn't need the site. Look forward to seeing you around some more.
For what it's worth ? my advice is to stop now - the sooner you stop, the less ill effects and the sooner you can get back to being who you want to be
take care
D
if it was easy, we wouldn't need the site. Look forward to seeing you around some more.
For what it's worth ? my advice is to stop now - the sooner you stop, the less ill effects and the sooner you can get back to being who you want to be
take care
D
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Join Date: Jan 2008
Location: Vancouver BC
Posts: 386
Matt,
find a program that works for you, and embrace it, and embrace yourself my friend.
Seren
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-programs.html
find a program that works for you, and embrace it, and embrace yourself my friend.
Seren
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-programs.html
Attitude of Gratitude
Join Date: Sep 2007
Location: Dayton, Ohio
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Mattcake, I appreciate your honesty, but I'm confused here. You said you wanted this. Why? Why would you want to go back to those feelings that you are fighting to be rid of?
I just don't undertand. It seems like some folks look at picking up as something as simple as changing their socks. There are so many signs that one is heading for a relapse. You don't just suddenly pick up. Relapse is a process, not an event.
I can't understand why people call it a slip. You weren't walking across the floor and suddenly, wham! You fell.
Go pour out, flush, crush, whatever it is your using right now.
Then come back on here.
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I just don't undertand. It seems like some folks look at picking up as something as simple as changing their socks. There are so many signs that one is heading for a relapse. You don't just suddenly pick up. Relapse is a process, not an event.
I can't understand why people call it a slip. You weren't walking across the floor and suddenly, wham! You fell.
Go pour out, flush, crush, whatever it is your using right now.
Then come back on here.
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Join Date: Oct 2007
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Originally Posted by serenityqueen 
Mattcake, I appreciate your honesty, but I'm confused here. You said you wanted this. Why? Why would you want to go back to those feelings that you are fighting to be rid of?[/I]
Matt, hang in there.
I look forward to seeing you around here, eh?
Spiritual Being
Join Date: Feb 2008
Location: Louisville
Posts: 138
Well Matt, not much more that I can say here that I haven't already PMed you but keep yer head up buddy. We gotta keep on trucking along. I'm here for you and I'll be thinking about you. Hang in there tiger.
Attitude of Gratitude
Join Date: Sep 2007
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Mattcake
If my last post sounded harsh, I didn't mean for it to be.
I was just being honest.
I have come to care a great deal about you on here.
I was just asking you a point blank question.
I struggled from the first time I attempted to get clean and sober in 1980.
I relapsed more times than I can even begin to count.
I don't want to see anyone suffer one minute longer than they already have.
My Prayers are with you . . . as always.
God Bless & Thank God . . . Just for Today,
Judy:ghug3
If my last post sounded harsh, I didn't mean for it to be.
I was just being honest.
I have come to care a great deal about you on here.
I was just asking you a point blank question.
I struggled from the first time I attempted to get clean and sober in 1980.
I relapsed more times than I can even begin to count.
I don't want to see anyone suffer one minute longer than they already have.
My Prayers are with you . . . as always.
God Bless & Thank God . . . Just for Today,
Judy:ghug3
where the light is
Join Date: Dec 2007
Location: Ontario, Canada
Posts: 2,763
Originally Posted by mattcake79
And to be completely honest: I wanted this, there was no struggle, I knew what I was doing. Stubborn I guess. I have no regrets except for one. Maybe I'll feel differently later on. I'll be hanging around because it's most definitely not over. Thanks to you I have tasted a bit of real sobriety.
I have been there - the exact same thoughts & feelings. Keep fighting! I look forward to more of your posts. D
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Join Date: Sep 2007
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Hi Matt!
I agree with what the others have said above.
I fell off the wagon on saturday too. Just like you I knew what I was doing and what I was going to get myself into, but I didn't stop. To be honest I don't have any remorse for what I did this weekend. I don't care that my 173 Days are gone. I'm going to start again.
So I hope we'll be counting our days together.
Take care of yourself.
I agree with what the others have said above.
I fell off the wagon on saturday too. Just like you I knew what I was doing and what I was going to get myself into, but I didn't stop. To be honest I don't have any remorse for what I did this weekend. I don't care that my 173 Days are gone. I'm going to start again.
So I hope we'll be counting our days together.
Take care of yourself.
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