StandFast

I have 3 weeks sober. I have been going to meetings.

I am feeling a lot of self pity (not due to above). I just want to get on with it.
I am tired to dealing with recovery.

Anyone out there who hit 90 days remember how they were at my stage?

Any input would be nice.

Thanks and have a great day!

Latte

There are days even now that I want to just throw in the towel. Not so that I can use, but just in general. I want to blow up and lose my sh*t, not work my program etc. I just come on and read the newcomers threads, go to a meeting and listen.

One minute at a time, one day at a time, sometimes one breath at a time.:atv

bugsworth

I always say I walked a mile in I have to walk a mile out. It gets better I promise!! Your body and mind needs time to heal...remember that , remind yourself ....you are healing. Ever notice a cut itches during the healing process...same kinda thing...sometimes it will be painful....but worth it!

3 weeks is awesome, you have proved you can do it...don't dwell on the past...walk to the future...one day at a time.

Dee74

yeah I had periods like that....you get through them

someone said to me when I was very new here...'you've walked yourself 10 miles into a forest - don't expect to get out in a single leap'...I still think that's good advice..we put a lot of years into drinking, we should expect to do the same in recovery...no easy fixes I'm afraid...

D

reed

Well, four months sober for me on Saturday. Been going to meetings everyday, working the program to the best of my ability & what not. I don't think the recovery thing goes away. The meeting I was at today people were discussing how they were reworking the steps after 5 & 10 years & so forth. I suppose your in either addiction or recovery (perhaps somewhere inbetween), each a cycle that repeats itself.

I guess we just bounce around all over the place till the lights go out.

CAPTAINZING2000

the early days of sobriety wasn't pretty

It's hard getting sober. Not having anything to mask the way we feel. That's why so many people go back out again.

I promise, it will get better for you. Life still happens but, you'll be able to live life on life's terms staying sober

LosingmyMisery

Sure, we all hit difficult moments. Especially early in recovery. We have to continue to move forward, stopping at times to take a deep breathe, and to remind ourselves why we don't want to drink again. I can't go back to that. Nothing has changed, in fact, I know it gets worse. I found out the hard way and don't want to re-live it ever again. Hang tough!!!

TiredMama

I agree with above, the early days are the worst. I am even earlier than you but I can relate somewhat.

Good luck.

gravity

Hi Standfast,

I am just finishing up day 89 and I keep a daily journal so I can tell you how I felt at around 3 weeks sober. I was having a spiritual re-awakening!

A post I made around that time:
I've always had a spiritual side but I guess I kind of suppressed it or took it for granted. I accept that I can't quit drinking and enjoy my life through sheer willpower alone. I need help and have asked my higher power to keep me safe & strong especially now while I am so early in sobriety & still working towards dealing with my inner demons. 25 days sober, no cravings (despite what should have been very tempting situations), feeling so much better - I don't believe that this happened just through willpower alone!

At the time, I was working on the first 3 steps with my sponsor - so much gratitude & a sort of peace. In retrospect, the key was that I was actively working on my recovery. It wasn't a period of 'is this all sobriety is about?' In the past 89 days, I have had negative periods but I did not even come close to reaching for a bottle. Right now, I am being very careful about complacency and I am increasing my recovery efforts. Gotta keep working at it!

CarolD

I remember your first post ...have you checked out
your positive progress by looking your earlier sharing?

You are doihng super!