Turning On The Stereo Was All It Took To Make Me Take a Drink..
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Turning On The Stereo Was All It Took To Make Me Take a Drink..
Just like that.....just like that! BOOM I decided to drink. I was cognitive of the fact that the switch had flipped and I was not using my rational thinking. I thought things through and decided to have a few anyways....ya right! I just knew I was going to drink.
BUT.........THANK GOD....I didn't!
I said a prayer, re-thought things, waited for the desire to pass......did I white knuckle it? Ya, but only for a few minutes! After a bit, it wasn't that I didn't want to drink......I wanted to stay SOBER.
So I am SO VERY THANK to be here right now.....SOBER!
I am so SUPER DUPER happy with myself right!
Tay.
BUT.........THANK GOD....I didn't!
I said a prayer, re-thought things, waited for the desire to pass......did I white knuckle it? Ya, but only for a few minutes! After a bit, it wasn't that I didn't want to drink......I wanted to stay SOBER.
So I am SO VERY THANK to be here right now.....SOBER!
I am so SUPER DUPER happy with myself right!
Tay.
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Hi Tay-lyn,
It's definitely not an easy journey, but as Carol says, when you want to be sober more than you want to drink, that's it.
You did great!
And try to figure out what the trigger was. Was it a particular song? If so, avoid it for awhile and that should help.
It's definitely not an easy journey, but as Carol says, when you want to be sober more than you want to drink, that's it.
You did great!
And try to figure out what the trigger was. Was it a particular song? If so, avoid it for awhile and that should help.
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CONGRATULATIONS TAY-LYN!
Isn't it a wonderful feeling when your Sobriety comes before anything else!
The easier way would have been to give in and drink. But you did the right thing. You fought that urge. Use this victory as lesson in the future, if and when you get that next urge, remember, you did it once, you can do it again!
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The easier way would have been to give in and drink. But you did the right thing. You fought that urge. Use this victory as lesson in the future, if and when you get that next urge, remember, you did it once, you can do it again!
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I bet the song was Night Train .... good job staying sober ...I hate the cravings sometimes, they hit me too. I used to drink at stuff all the time. Sometimes when I'm bummed because things aren't working out or someone tries to run me over with their car, I think of a drink but realize that it won't solve anything ... its a shame too ... yeah, that would be too easy.
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Thanks everyone. I can't tell you how GRATEFUL, GRATEFUL, GRATEFUL I am that I stayed sober last night. When I went to bed last night, I felt sick about how close I came to picking up. I was very disturbed by it.
But...thank God, here I am on day 35.
Thanks to all for all the great support!
Hugs,
Tay.
But...thank God, here I am on day 35.
Thanks to all for all the great support!
Hugs,
Tay.
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I apologize for scaring everyone with the title of this thread. But once I had posted the thread, I didn't know how to go back and change the title....is that possible?
I posted this thread in haste. When I read the title, I thought 'I didn't drink....how come it came out sounding like I DID?'
Once I decided not to drink, I wasted no time in getting online and typing out my thread, just to get it out there. Then, once I re-read it, I saw the title and realized it sounded like I drank.
Sorry about that.
BTW....isn't this site great! I was able to get online immediately for support with my decision. It's like being able to get to a mini-meeting every time you need one. The support helps me to stay sober. So thank goodness for the mini-meetings!
I posted this thread in haste. When I read the title, I thought 'I didn't drink....how come it came out sounding like I DID?'
Once I decided not to drink, I wasted no time in getting online and typing out my thread, just to get it out there. Then, once I re-read it, I saw the title and realized it sounded like I drank.
Sorry about that.
BTW....isn't this site great! I was able to get online immediately for support with my decision. It's like being able to get to a mini-meeting every time you need one. The support helps me to stay sober. So thank goodness for the mini-meetings!
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Scared the bejeebers (whatever they are) out of me, Tay!
They're still difficult for me to read...even after a lot of years. I want to lend support...but, at the same time, I want to shake the relapser into honesty! Nothing, no one, no how can make you drink, if you would rather stay sober! And, using excuses for drinking will only lead to more relapses...so, remember, one of the ways to stay sober is the HOW...Honesty, Openmindedness, Willingness.
Well done! And yes, the title did disturb me as well. Relapse threads are the most difficult for me to read right now (day 15).
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