scaredykat

Hi guys, I'm still so stressed out from last night. I've been having panic attacks and shaking.

Chloe went to get blood work for her surgery on Monday last night. Well, she bite the tech and they turned us in to the county health dept. Now she's on a 10 day quarantine because she didn't get her shots yet. I'm P***** because I don't understand why they didn't give her the shots in the first place last month when we first brought her in.

Thank god she gets to stay with us. I though they were going to take her away from us to quarantine her some where else. I understand the law, but think its kind of crazy with a strictly indoor, declawed cat.

Now her surgery is canceled and they can't do it until next month. So now I'm worried her knee won't heal right because of all this crap.

I've been crying my eyes out since last night and didn't get much sleep. On top of that I've been really sick and haven't been to a meeting all week. We're all still morning over Tammy. I feel like I'm going insane here. I have been temped to drink over all this. I just can't take any more.

I am going to a meeting tonight so i can whine and moan to them.

Barb

parentrecovers

please do your best to get to that meeting, scaredy. meanwhile, we're listening.

prayers to ya, k

Hope

Anna

Barb, I am so sorry that red tape is getting in the way of Chloe being taken care of, but of course you know that being a sober mom right now, is the only way to deal with this.

You can get through it.

Astro

Whine, moan, and vent away (((Barb))) Sorry you're having a rough time.

tanyapmc

Hugs Barb. Seems like when it rains it pours. I'm glad you get to keep Chloe at home with you.

scaredykat

Thanks guys. But why does everything have to happen now when I'm in early recovery. Why can't i have a normal early recovery. whatever that is. This just sucks.

My husband's trying to joke about all this. Saying Chloe's face is on a wanted poster, and that she needs a ankle bracelet like Martha Stewart had. Which is funny. But i just worry about her knee.

Hevyn

Gotta love your husband's sense of humor. That's hilarious. Humor helps, but I know what you mean, Barb - so not fair, the timing of all this, & Chloe's treatment being delayed. Yet, it would be ten times worse if you were trying to get through it drinking, fuzzy & hungover. I always thought drinking made me stronger and able to face things. In the end, it made me weak and frightened. I know you'll do this! Love, Joanie

stone

((((Barb))))

Drinking will NOT help the situation hun.

scaredykat

Your right Joanie. Drinking definitely will make it worse. I probably end up with phnomia(sp.) or something trying to still get over this cold.

I'll be seeing my sponsor in a couple of hours. She probably be saying "life on life's terms" again. Boy, i hate that.

paulmh

You ARE having a normal recovery. The universe hasn't singled you out for special treatment.

In my early recovery my wife was diagnosed with a large brain tumour. I learned then what it means to "let go and let G*d".

Dee74

you'll probably hate this too Barb LOL

Paulmh's right...this is life - we just forgot how sucky it can be sometimes cos we avoided it so well before.

But Chloe's ok, she's at home, and she will get the surgery eventually...don't sweat it. Look after yourself, kick the flu, stay in the programme and look after the girls. They need their Mom.
D

Aysha

Cant add much more except your gonna be fine.

WLDKATZ

I DO CALL ME!!!!!!!!!





HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSS

You CAN do it!

Hope

Unfortunately, life doesn't randomly select who gets a good time of things and who gets a bad time. The bad stuff happens to us all. It was happening all along but we never saw it because we were drinking through it and was oblivious to what was happening. Now it's happening and we can feel it and be aware of the world around us. It's unpleasant and hurts so bad sometimes but we can make it through without picking up a drink. I know it doesn't feel like it now (and believe me, I have to remind myself of this EVERY DAY) but it does pass whether we drink through it or not. The only thing drinking will do is guarantee you that you will hurt worse and it will only make the situation darker and more painful. But if you allow yourself the chance to feel the feelings, you will grow stronger and feel proud of yourself for going through it.

I promise you that you are not alone!

Rowan

Glad you're meeting your sponsor and going to a meeting. You're doing the right things, Barb. Thinking of you, and sending hugs and support across the miles.

serenityqueen

I have to agree with so many people, what you are experiencing is a normal Recovery. Recovery isn't all a bed of roses, but being Clean and Sober makes life alot easier to deal with. Also, someone on another thread said something the other day I found funny.

Normal is just a setting on the washing machine.

Have Faith, it will all work out. think about my "signature" at the bottom. Sometimes we don't understand but we all need to have Faith.

When you look back on this, you will be able to chalk it up to another situation that you were strong enough to handle. It's gonna help add coping skills to your Recovery Toolbox.

We're all here for ya!

gravity

Hi Barb,

So sorry that you are having such a rough time. Tonight, my sponsor told me that life doesn't get any better or worse when we sober up. Instead we see more clearly and react in a better way - we don't have to pick up a drink anymore.

All my best

CarolD

Mega Hugs Barb

Take comfort in the fact she is home
where she is loved rather than locked away.

That's the important fact ...IMO

scaredykat

Thank you everyone. I'm feeling a lot better tonight now that I'm thinking rationally. I went to my meeting and called a local friend afterword. My sponsor wasn't there tonight so I'll have to call her tomorrow. There wasn't too many at the meeting tonight after the snow we had today.

So now I'll sleep better tonight too that all this weight is off my shoulders. So thinking rationally about all this I am grateful that Chloe gets to stay with us and she will still get her surgery. That's now going to be on March 6th.

Barb