time to turn the brain back on
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time to turn the brain back on
Ive been drunk every waking moment for a month now.
Either couldnt deal with or didnt want to deal with life. not sure which it was, but that doesnt really matter.
I almost cracked my head open last night. took a nice fall and knocked myself out.
When I came to with no idea what happened it was a wake up call literally.
I dont know why it always has to take something screwed up for me to look at my life for what it really is, but thats how it goes for me.
Right now i woould really like something to drink, but im just gonna sweat it out and not piuck up today.
ahhh day one again, its becoming slightly repetitive. I think im starting to bore myself with my stupidity.
its going to be a tough fight today to keep myself away from the liquor store, but it has to be done.
NOt happy
Either couldnt deal with or didnt want to deal with life. not sure which it was, but that doesnt really matter.
I almost cracked my head open last night. took a nice fall and knocked myself out.
When I came to with no idea what happened it was a wake up call literally.
I dont know why it always has to take something screwed up for me to look at my life for what it really is, but thats how it goes for me.
Right now i woould really like something to drink, but im just gonna sweat it out and not piuck up today.
ahhh day one again, its becoming slightly repetitive. I think im starting to bore myself with my stupidity.
its going to be a tough fight today to keep myself away from the liquor store, but it has to be done.
NOt happy
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Hi
I keep having to start over too, and when I drink, I make a complete ass out of myself..Its getting to the point now where I just dont care anymore
Good luck to you, maybe we can help each other..Do you have emotional pain..I do , I lost a baby in May and cant deal with it, I drink and the demons come out.
I keep having to start over too, and when I drink, I make a complete ass out of myself..Its getting to the point now where I just dont care anymore
Good luck to you, maybe we can help each other..Do you have emotional pain..I do , I lost a baby in May and cant deal with it, I drink and the demons come out.
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Im miserable at the moment, but I am determined not to fold.
A little walk to the liquor store is all I am thinking about.
I think I would like to go back to sleep, but I cant
Moving on
A little walk to the liquor store is all I am thinking about.
I think I would like to go back to sleep, but I cant
Moving on
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Ive been looped for weeks. i mean 2 seconds after waking up I started drinking everyday.
Just these few hours of cleantime feel better. I can actually see clear enough toread through the posts and reply in some coherent faashion.
If I cant sleep ill just stay online.
im trying to see if I can get a ride to a meeting. They have a buch in my town today, but of course im like 10 towns away staying with a sober friend.
Just these few hours of cleantime feel better. I can actually see clear enough toread through the posts and reply in some coherent faashion.
If I cant sleep ill just stay online.
im trying to see if I can get a ride to a meeting. They have a buch in my town today, but of course im like 10 towns away staying with a sober friend.
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You can do it, C4L, you really can...
Its been said that if we spend only half the amount of effort on not drinking that we have spent on drinking, then hitting even one AA meeting a day would be a walk in the park.
How much time in a given week do you spend in drinking? ... How much driving would you do, day or night, to go get sloshed? ... How much money? ... How much focus? ... How much energy? ... How much effort? ... How much of your *life*?
You *can* do it, and there are literally millions of people who are eager to help you with it... You just have to try, and let others know that you need and want their support.
No one is going to come knocking on your door and say "Okay, now its time to get sober"... *You* have to make that decision... Don't let alcohol make it for you.
You are not alone! The help and assistance is waiting for you. You just have to go find it.
You can do it!
Its been said that if we spend only half the amount of effort on not drinking that we have spent on drinking, then hitting even one AA meeting a day would be a walk in the park.
How much time in a given week do you spend in drinking? ... How much driving would you do, day or night, to go get sloshed? ... How much money? ... How much focus? ... How much energy? ... How much effort? ... How much of your *life*?
You *can* do it, and there are literally millions of people who are eager to help you with it... You just have to try, and let others know that you need and want their support.
No one is going to come knocking on your door and say "Okay, now its time to get sober"... *You* have to make that decision... Don't let alcohol make it for you.
You are not alone! The help and assistance is waiting for you. You just have to go find it.
You can do it!
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Drinkings 24/7 a hard one to come off...but you can do it...
like you say...get into the positives...clear head...a little reality (LOL things get a little surreal being drunk all the time, hey)
You can do this. Lot of other good advice here regarding the dreaded m word too.....
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like you say...get into the positives...clear head...a little reality (LOL things get a little surreal being drunk all the time, hey)
You can do this. Lot of other good advice here regarding the dreaded m word too.....
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I know exactly how you feel, you never have to feel this way again...you can do it. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
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Stone I know ive been talking for a long time.
I just cant help myself. I like to drink, it just doesnt like me back.
I do feel like a failure about this. thats why I went back to the daily drinking. I said oh ill never quit so why bother even trying, just drink. That turned out to not be the best idea ive had in awhile.
Once I had some clean time if I did drink it wasnt much. Just a couple of beers and not everyday. Once I decided not to try I was back to hard liquor and drinking daily.
I dont know, maybe I should just shut up about all this to drink or not to drink episodes.
Not helping anyone
Sorry
I just cant help myself. I like to drink, it just doesnt like me back.
I do feel like a failure about this. thats why I went back to the daily drinking. I said oh ill never quit so why bother even trying, just drink. That turned out to not be the best idea ive had in awhile.
Once I had some clean time if I did drink it wasnt much. Just a couple of beers and not everyday. Once I decided not to try I was back to hard liquor and drinking daily.
I dont know, maybe I should just shut up about all this to drink or not to drink episodes.
Not helping anyone
Sorry
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No need to say your sorry and please dont stop posting. Im on day 3 AGAIN and Ive been on this site since like 04, I too have the to drink or not to drink episodes and I enjoy knowing Im not alone. Hang in there and know you have support in whatever you do....
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I'm on day one after YEARS of hard liqour going down like water. I watch the clock and when it's an acceptable time, I go straight for the bottle. Every day.
Please don't feel like a failure. Just try not to drink today. That is what my goal is, I CANNOT worry about tomorrow. I will try not to drink today.
Good luck to you, and don't quit trying.
Please don't feel like a failure. Just try not to drink today. That is what my goal is, I CANNOT worry about tomorrow. I will try not to drink today.
Good luck to you, and don't quit trying.
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Hi C4L and everyone else;
Please don't apologise for 'talking about getting sober' but not actually doing it. At least you're talking about it. Please stick around and keep trying. AND most importantly, disregard any negative or harsh comments you may hear. Don't let them drive you away. We all do things in our own time. And we all try and try again. I don't think there are many alcoholics who woke up one day, completely dependant on the drink, and said.....'gee, today I quit' and they actually stayed quit on their first try. It has been MY experience that we all take a few go's. So hang in there. Try again. And most importantly, stick around.
You're worth it!
Please don't apologise for 'talking about getting sober' but not actually doing it. At least you're talking about it. Please stick around and keep trying. AND most importantly, disregard any negative or harsh comments you may hear. Don't let them drive you away. We all do things in our own time. And we all try and try again. I don't think there are many alcoholics who woke up one day, completely dependant on the drink, and said.....'gee, today I quit' and they actually stayed quit on their first try. It has been MY experience that we all take a few go's. So hang in there. Try again. And most importantly, stick around.
You're worth it!
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