Fluffhead85

I am new to this sober recovery online type of deal. I guess I really never cared before if things like this even exsisted. I have been strung out on opiates for five years, and I am only 22. My older brother was killed in a car accident two days after I turned 18 that involved oxy contin and cocaine, let's just say after that recreational use became a lifestyle for me. I have lost friends, jobs, and myself over the past five years. I have spent an outrageous ammount of money and tried recovery in rehab once and went to a Methadone clinic for a year when I was 19. What changed? At the very beginning of november I hit rock bottom, which really wasn't anything new for me, however this time I actually got scared for once. I had accepted that I was a drug addict and kind of figured I would die that way. But this time, where my parents had always bailed me out, I really didn't think that they would. November was difficult, but things are looking way up these days. 90 days completely clean for me is a huge deal. I haven't been completely sober from all drugs since I was 14. Now I can pass a drug test for everything including marijuana. It is a truly incredible feeling. However, I have a lot of bridges that I burned and loved ones of whom I lost their trust. But most of all I just want to prove to myself that I can do this.

Anna

Wow, Welcome and that's a great post!

I'm glad you found us.

nandm

Thank you for the great post.

Sorry to hear about your brother.

Welcome to SR!

tkdan

Welcome to SR. Way to go on 90 days that is a major accomplishment. I don't have experience with your drug of choice but I'm sure there are others here that do. There is a substance abuse forum here you may find more people there that can relate to your situation. Good to see you here.