Wine-not!

hey guys!!!i'm back after falling off the wagon for the last few days...got back from the holidays and just fell back into my old habits...drinking on the porch with my neighbors at night...i guess as a way to tackle the loneliness. i don't know when that switch is turned on that says i can drink! i obviously can't cause i drank 1 bottle of wine and 3-4 beers. it's crazy! i need to stop this...i did so well for 15 days and then completely fell apart! ok, here i am on day 1 again,,,and i'm so pissed at myself! i need to stick to this!

mike_mass

Welcome back!

Anna

Welcome back and you get past the two-week mark!

Wine-not!

thanks 51anna...
i will make it off the 2 week board this time...i'm so sick of feeling sick and tired and wasting so much time recovering from my indulgences!

Jomey

Hi & Welcome back. I wasn't able to stop the first time either and neither were alot of others here. Keep posting! Jomey

Wine-not!

Thanks Jomey! It has been great finding this site and knowing that i can come here to vent with you guys. i hope this time it sticks...this relapsing business is no fun!

curliQ

Glad to see you're back. It's been real hard for me, too. I've been real lonely and moody and man, mr. bacardi always made it better. I understand that it's hard.

nandm

I am glad to see you made it back. Too often people do not. Are you working a program of recovery? If that one is not working for you then you might consider trying another. There is a program for everyone that will work. Please consider the following.

Amrita

Welcome back!

Amrita

Reubena

Welcome back!!

I fell off the wagon, too, after 3 weeks of sobriety in September, and it took me 3 months to get my hiney back here... Good for you for coming back so quickly! I find if I read this forum at night, it keeps me busy enough that I stay away from the booze. And it keeps me from feeling lonely. Sending good thoughts your way.

CarolD

Have you read the top sticky post here?

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/alcoholism/

Hope you find yoour way
Recovery Rocks!

1963comet

Still here for you

Aysha

Glad your back.
Dont beat yourself up. I'm sure not many of us got it right the first time.

Just keep trying.

Wine-not!

Thanks to all you guys for your support. Day 2 and i am really depressed and cranky. i feel like i have so much to do and don't have the energy or want to do it. i was really crabby and mean to my children last night and this am and feel bad despite the fact that they deserved it a little bit. i can't wait to stop feeling on edge...also trying to give up smoking at the same time this time around. this may be what is making things a bit harder this time. i will be on here a lot today!

Jomey

Hi hun- Sorry you are feeling down today. Try your best to be kind to yourself. When you look at what you have to do today, ask yourself "How important is it?" and if the answer is less than "very", let it go.

I hear you loud and clear on feeling bad about being hard on the kids. I figured it was better to have a rough couple of weeks and try to explain to the kids (on their level) that I had been sick and that getting better is hard work and can make Mom tired and cranky than to worry too much about how things go for the first couple weeks of sobriety. I know you are going it alone right now and your family isn't very close by, but if there is even one friend you can rely on enough to step in and help with the kids even for an hour or two, don't be afraid to ask.

I am rooting for you girlfriend!

Hugs

curliQ

Hey Sweets, you're doing fine. When my DH was gone and I was having a rough day I really just had to look at the kids and say to them, "Look, today is not a good day. It would be wise to avoid me at all costs." Fair warning to smart people I figure.

Hang in there girl. Tomorrow will be better.