Hope

I cried on and off all day today. I was so happy yesterday and a ball of tears today. But no matter how much I cried today, I felt like it was going to be okay. I'm right where I am supposed to be... feeling stuff that I haven't felt in a long time and getting back in touch with my feelings.
Sober life is overwheling at times but I'm making it.

Grateful that I didn't have to pick up a drink... actually that thought was far from my mind. I dealt with what came.

Moving in to my new apartment tomorrow. Starting school again next week. So much to look forward to. I'm learning to not beat myself up for what is behind me. I have today and my future is yet unwritten. I can take today and make my future whatever I want.

But I never want to go back to being a drunken hollow shell of a human being.

Life is too precious to spend wasted.

nandm

Excellent sharing of your experience, strength, and hope. Thank you.

CarolD

Up and down...down and up...
Life is ful of adventure and change.

Luckyv2

Boy now isn't that the truth! Even after 20 months I still have ups and downs and downs and ups and more downs and up and still like Carol says full of adventures and change. One thing is for certain we just need to live in the now and feeling those feelings HOPE! OMG I am right with ya dear. It has been a nightmare for me here lately. But with the help of here and my meetings and stuff I am getting through it, and like ya say we are probably right where we need to be.

God I don't like that saying

Hope

Definitely adventure and change!

Sobering up was scary because I could not
accept the woman I had become while drunk.

I'm working on accepting me for who I am without all the stuff that booze turned me into.

I'm just not the person I want to be when I drink.

Aysha

Great post.
We went through all those changes while using. But going nowhere with it. We were just hiding behind the addiction so we didnt feel or see it. Now it is to a better place on a better path.
Your doing great.
Good luck moving and going back to school.

Anna

It's a long journey Hope, but I'm glad you're finding peace with yourself and the changes in your life.