still hangin' in
 

Day 15 today and still hanging in...the past couple of days have been tough. lots of anxiety and almost panick at times...can't really put my finger on why. still visiting relatives and there's a lot going on so i may be overly tired. last nite was very challenging...i really wanted a drink! i found myself alone at last with my girls safely tucked in bed,,,and an empty house of all other adults who had gone out to party,,,i felt like i deserved a drink....i wanted to unwind! it took a lot, but finally i just watched a little tv and ended up reading a few pages of a book before i got so drowsy...the urge went away. i get very scared thinking that i may relapse..and i just really don't want to go there...having this many days feels good, but the beginning was so hard...i don't want to go through that again. i also am afraid of that cocky voice that says i can have just a drink...i know this to be so not true!!!something happens after that first drink that i have no control over, and i am just tired of letting this poison control me! sorry to go on and on...it's just been a long couple of days... i am holidayed out!

whoooooooooo huuuuuuuuuu!

good for you Wine Not !

Well done !
I think i stayed sober on fear for the first 12 months ! LOL

Another day of sobriety in the bank :)

HUGX
Leigh

Good to see you hanging in there.

You might not be aware of PAWS

Post Acute Withdrawl - Relapse Prevention Specialists - TLC The Living Center

There is interesting info there IMO

Good to see you won again!
Blessings to you and your family

wine, good go'n

and dont let the built in forgetter forget!

good wishes...

rz

Wine-not,

Great job on day 15! Your protecting your sobriety through this hard holiday time :You_Rock_

Keep posting and hangin' in there :) It keeps getting better!

I understand. And didn't you get a little pissed that you were denying yourself? I do. It's like, I do so much for all of them, what's one little drink? Oh yeah, I'm denying myself for them too!! It's twisted and sick and that's why it's bad. You showed great strength and should be very proud of yourself. I think you deserve some very quality chocolate.

Keep going hun! You are doing great at a very difficult time of year! Be good to yourself..I know it's hard when you are a mom and travelling and all that, but try to find one little moment a day to at least pat yourself on the back for a job well done!

Hi Wine-Not - sorry we missed your send off on the "2 wk" thread. Great job making it to day 15. If you survived the first 14 days with us, you'll should have no problem with the next 14.