This too shall pass: Christmas loneliness
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This too shall pass: Christmas loneliness
I've been quite alone this Christmas. I have people around, but that lonely feeling is inside me. I know i need to be alone to search deeper for new answers as the new year approaches. I've realized the journey of learning will never stop and recovering is also becoming me...
I just wanted to start a hug thread, cuz i know it's Christmas, and many have that kind of family that is all joyous around this time, i really don't and it's ok.... i honestly would rather sit by myself and watch a movie..i can't, i have to smile and share moments of joy with people who i know won't love me for who i am if they knew what i am...that hurts..i know if i opened up i would be left with less than hath the family i have now..
so here it goes..if you feel alone let's all hug in this thread.....
cuz the new year is a great chance for a great start...
Ideas for great spirit
1) lol....i decided to buy paints and paint my room..i'm in my parents house..lol...i've always had this room..and they basically have the house for us....i know dad won't like it...lol...but i'm also a painter and artist and i have another year at this house, so i'm gonna try to feel happy and welcomed for this next year...my recording studio is not in this house so all i can do is paint.....and if you ever knew an artist...if i don't express myself i feel like i die...... i'm gonna spend the days after Christmas turning my room into a temple....i am turning my room into almost something like a forest.....right now i got 6 baby turtles in a moving bidet , because i still haven't found a fountain to put them...lol..now i'm off to the store to buy paints and if it looks good i'll post a pic...
2) i've met some other people who are alone too inside their hearts..in this time...it's hard for me..because Karim used to be the guy who was really happy at Christmas..but my religion is being shaken by the world's acceptance of me..i still love Jesus and Mary.. but now i love the idea of Buddha too and any sign of peace....i've come to see that it's just the same God but in other forms...
3) I've accepted myself this year...I coming out of my first love and honestly those who know me, know i have a hard time letting go because i give my all..Knowing this person still has some kind of love down there makes me go almost crazy and makes me want to jump in... I wish i could make love instead of starting alone...but i have to be at peace with me first...It does hurt knowing people don't deserve you and don't fight for you when you're sick, so what am i left with?.....Me...like India Arie says....This too shall pass...The first thing my lover gave me when we met was India's Cd about coming out of a relation...If you guys have some money go out and buy it..it changed my life...it's the best cd i've heard in a year..it's called volume one: testimony: Life and Relationship
YouTube - India Arie - This too shall Pass Live In Paris (2007.07.05)
YouTube - Wings Of Forgiveness by: India.Arie
GUYS!
We're not alone...across the world there are many people looking forward for a new bright, and beautiful year that will bring us so much peace..
love, Karim
I just wanted to start a hug thread, cuz i know it's Christmas, and many have that kind of family that is all joyous around this time, i really don't and it's ok.... i honestly would rather sit by myself and watch a movie..i can't, i have to smile and share moments of joy with people who i know won't love me for who i am if they knew what i am...that hurts..i know if i opened up i would be left with less than hath the family i have now..
so here it goes..if you feel alone let's all hug in this thread.....
cuz the new year is a great chance for a great start...
Ideas for great spirit
1) lol....i decided to buy paints and paint my room..i'm in my parents house..lol...i've always had this room..and they basically have the house for us....i know dad won't like it...lol...but i'm also a painter and artist and i have another year at this house, so i'm gonna try to feel happy and welcomed for this next year...my recording studio is not in this house so all i can do is paint.....and if you ever knew an artist...if i don't express myself i feel like i die...... i'm gonna spend the days after Christmas turning my room into a temple....i am turning my room into almost something like a forest.....right now i got 6 baby turtles in a moving bidet , because i still haven't found a fountain to put them...lol..now i'm off to the store to buy paints and if it looks good i'll post a pic...
2) i've met some other people who are alone too inside their hearts..in this time...it's hard for me..because Karim used to be the guy who was really happy at Christmas..but my religion is being shaken by the world's acceptance of me..i still love Jesus and Mary.. but now i love the idea of Buddha too and any sign of peace....i've come to see that it's just the same God but in other forms...
3) I've accepted myself this year...I coming out of my first love and honestly those who know me, know i have a hard time letting go because i give my all..Knowing this person still has some kind of love down there makes me go almost crazy and makes me want to jump in... I wish i could make love instead of starting alone...but i have to be at peace with me first...It does hurt knowing people don't deserve you and don't fight for you when you're sick, so what am i left with?.....Me...like India Arie says....This too shall pass...The first thing my lover gave me when we met was India's Cd about coming out of a relation...If you guys have some money go out and buy it..it changed my life...it's the best cd i've heard in a year..it's called volume one: testimony: Life and Relationship
YouTube - India Arie - This too shall Pass Live In Paris (2007.07.05)
YouTube - Wings Of Forgiveness by: India.Arie
GUYS!
We're not alone...across the world there are many people looking forward for a new bright, and beautiful year that will bring us so much peace..
love, Karim
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That was a moving post, Karim. THere was a punk band in Boston called the Dogmatics that had a song that went like this:
It's the twentieth of December
A cold rain's fallin' down
Kenmore Square's deserted
The college kids have left town
It sure don't feel like Christmas
Sure doesn't feel like Christmas time -to me
The way the guy (Jerry Lehane) sang it, you just felt the lonliness in your gut. That was my anthem for years around this time of year. Not now.
Hugs to you, Karim. Post a photo of your room when you're done. Merry Christmas - happy holidays to all.
Mike
It's the twentieth of December
A cold rain's fallin' down
Kenmore Square's deserted
The college kids have left town
It sure don't feel like Christmas
Sure doesn't feel like Christmas time -to me
The way the guy (Jerry Lehane) sang it, you just felt the lonliness in your gut. That was my anthem for years around this time of year. Not now.
Hugs to you, Karim. Post a photo of your room when you're done. Merry Christmas - happy holidays to all.
Mike
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Location: Upstate New York
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Been off 'puter more than usual, Karim, and I just read your post! It was lovely & got me all teary eyed. I was around people on Christmas but felt lonely in my heart also. I don't even know why, just many attitude adjustments needed for my first sober Christmas in many years. Now I feel sad that I didn't enjoy the day more. It sounds like you're openminded to new ideas about religion, and finding out what works best for you, and that's great. Hoping for a wonderful new beginning in '08, where you'll find true contentment. Love, Joanie
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