So here I am....
 

got myself an Ativan scrip to help with the withdrwals...just drinking right along with it...gives you kind of a weird high...drove drunk with the kids again...guess all the tears and midnight remorse don't amount to ****....on the verge of prison...job loss...marriage ruin....health breakdown..WTF....I feel good now right I should not be allowed to participate in any innocents life...its just a matter of time....what the f**** is wrong with me....I'm scrared of dying...just put me away or something....I *CAN"T STOP....I'm halfawy thinking of callimg the sheriff on myself

I think ya'll ull of s***as iam
 

yeh;;throw me ome program

Rob,

Please don't drink while taking benzos! Why don't you call someone? I wish there were something I could do. I know you're messed up right now. Please pick up the phone and ask for help. RIGHT NOW

I agree with Rowan Rob. Call someone.

D

Please get help. Wish I could do something from here, but at least I'll pray if you don't mind. Jomey

When you sober up, please come back.

Best thing you can do Rob is sober up, and read this forum. What you'll come to realize is a lot of people here been in the exact situation you're in now.