rloomer

Hope your day finds you in better spirits N4C


Rob

Pilgrim

Thanks Indi. We call them something different here. My friend has one.

How are you today Need4?

parentrecovers

praying that you find your way, n4c. i am praying. k

Dee74

me too

D

Jomey

Need4 - any news today? how are you? mother hen is worrying again...!:ghug3

IO Storm

Prayers NFC...

Your posts make me so ashamed of ever complaining about stupid things...

I, too will pray for you, my friend.

Don't ever give up.

love,

IO

Need4Change

First of all, I want to thank all of you for so much love, caring and support. It means a LOT to me not to have to feel all alone in this mess I find myself...that MANY of us find ourselves in.

The subject line "Day 2# and pickled brain..." say's it all. I woke up this morning feeling "ok" but as the morning progressed, I began to feel like my brain was scambled, pickled, anesthetized, foggy, buggy, dazed. I and many others I've talked to (and who's posts I've read) have experienced this with both alcohol withdrawal as well as various anxiety disorders. It's a very uncomfortable and unnerving feeling to say the least.

The question is...will this "feeling" get soooo bad today that at some point I can't take it anymore and end up picking up a drink?. What about Christmas day?. Will I be able to stay sober for Christmas or will I drink to "relax and feel good" and end up acting like an idiot?. These questions haunt me.

For NOW I am sober. For now, I have zero cravings. Today is a normal "drinking day" for me (I have always drank one day, did'nt drink the next, etc). How can I make things different TODAY so that I don't drink?. I'm so bloody sick of drinking myself silly, the chain-smoking and the hangovers from Hell the following day. How can I break this maddening cycle besides spending Christmas in rehab?.

Uuuuhhhhhh!!!

Need4Change

Rusty Zipper

need4 one minute at a time, or one second at a time if need be... need4

more good wishes!

rz

Need4Change

Since I have always alternated days between drinking and not drinking and since I was so afraid that one of my "drinking days" would fall on the 25'th (Christmas), I actually caught myself looking at the calendar a short while ago and saying out loud "drinking day...non-drinking day...drinking day..." trying to figure out if I was going to be drunk on Christmas day.

When I discovered (much to my horror) that Christmas did indeed fall on a "drinking day" I then caught myself trying to decide if I was going to break the cycle by drinking an extra day or going without an extra day so that I could be sober for Christmas.

This is how an alcoholic thinks...I guess

Need4Change

Jersey Nonny

Quote:

When I discovered (much to my horror) that Christmas did indeed fall on a "drinking day" I then caught myself trying to decide if I was going to break the cycle by drinking an extra day or going without an extra day so that I could be sober for Christmas.

How about stringing together a few "non-drinking days" to break the cycle!?! Now, there's a radical approach...not drinking one day at a time...try it...it actually works!!! Will be hoping and praying that you'll be able to make the change you need, Need4Change.