capergirl770

I am in so much pain..I have been betrayed and hurt so much in the last year. I work with the guy that just lied and betrayed me and it hurts. Not because I want to be with him, but yet again, I got made a fool of and taken for a ride. I'm not trying to have a pity party. This time I know I just have to feel the pain. I was doing so good, that I didnt think I would ever get down from the high. But today I feel hurt. Just plain pain. I feel like I'm always the one who pays the price and I'm trying to leave it up to God..I'm trying to feel better, what I really want is a 24 and a sleeping pill. I wouldnt do it , but I never realized how much more pain hurts when you are sober.

CarolD

Yes...it's painful when others are toxic to us.

Are you going to AA?
If so...please find a meeting
go share this betrayal with others.

Prayer helps me immensley
Blessings

Anna

You're right, there is no way around it, but to feel the pain. And, then you learn that you can get through it. And, I think it's fair to say that you will come down from the high. Life is full of ups and downs and recovery is about learning to deal with the stuff. I'm sorry you're hurt, but you can get through this.

SaTiT

Sorry that you're going that.
Plaese don't pick up over it.
The pain won't last forever. it's okay to hurt.
Have a good cry..it's okay it's the most natural thing anyone
can feel during a break up. Get mad if you must..it's okay to.
Just don't hurt yourself or do something stupid. it's okay to be angery
when you get screwed over. You won't be angery forever.
Feel what you feel..it's okay you're feelings aren't going to kill
you. if you process your emotions now you won't have to carry it
with you into the future.

right, wrong, in differents, a break up hurts. A lost is a lost
is a lost is a lost.

Plaese be gentle with yourself. Give yourself a time out everyonce
in a while from the narley roller coasters.
Maybe you can find a meeting to attend. A hug is good. Get out of
the house for a couple of hours. Reach out to others, but allow
yourself to grieve. Maybe you can keep a journal.

Not too long ago for me...
I feel better today, a little bit better everyday.
I'm availiable but I'm not available
but, I feel FREEEEEEEEEE... YEAPEEEEEEEEE !!!!

mae164

ALCHOLIS LIKE TO THINK FEELINGS ARE FACTS- they are not but the resentment you have can lead you to drink again if you dont do a 5th step or 10th step over it(depending on were you are in the program- going and talking to another alcoholic(ABOUT THEIR PROBLEM AND TRYING TO HELP THEM WITH HOW TO GET GOD INVOLVED- SHARING EXPERINCE NOT IDEAS) Is what i would tell any of my girls to go do- cause you are stuck in the middle of it and that getts you out of it and GOD IN

capergirl770

THank you
I guess I'm going to have my moments. Today is one of them..God I miss the booze right now, it was like my only friend, it always gave me a hug..that is until the next morning ...I guess I just never dealt with anything sober before, its so weird. I dont even feel sorry for myself. I just hurt. Plain and simple. I feel like a child again..

tanyapmc

Hang on! It will get better as long as you don't pick up.

Alive

Hi! Life is so short for us to let people use us as objects. You need to show people how they should treat you. I mean, if you act with confidence and hold your head high, they can't break your spirit, never. It's all in the soul...You have a power inside of you.

wish you the best..stay strong..because you're worth it..

capergirl770

Thank you..You are so right. ANd for the last few days I did feel confident. Like a new me, but old habits are hard to break.. I've always dealt with pain by drinking... I am excited to carry on sober, happier and for sure without a man right now..I guess I just want to fast forward to the part where I am healed,confident and people admire me, know what I mean, or at least I admire me. Its that I feel like I let myself down. I always ignored my instints ALWAYS... I am a very out going person with a very hard exterior. People gravitate towards me, but I never saw it that way I guess. I'm trying to be kind to myself now. i honestly feel like for once I am mothering me instead of mothering everyone else, I'm am known for my maternal nature. I love to give give and fix everyone, guess its time to fix me. But being maternal and loosing my son has taken its toll. Its been a hard hard battle..

SaTiT

Yeap..plain simple hurt..plus a lot of mind trips of previouse life
experince. So those emotions will get trgger as will becuase they
feel so similar. Just don't try to figure too much out at the moments.
You mind is going through shock.lol Don't even control them, just
like them flow like your tears..it'll stop just like the tears or the
attacks will get fewer and further apart as time gose on.
becuase it's just plain simple hurt....you're getting it.

Feel it, think it..but don't re-act.

Be good to yourself.

Jersey Nonny

When I was newly sober, I was going through a painful divorce...ending a marriage of 25 years...and, I was in a lot of emotional pain. I thought I heard that "pain is optional". I shared at a meeting that, I didn't want to feel all this pain, but didn't know I had a choice, if it was optional. Someone with a lot of good, sober AA years corrected me, and explained, "Pain is inevitable...suffering is optional." So, although there will always be pain to some extent, how much I want to suffer is up to me. Do I wallow? Do I drink over it? Will either make me feel better? What I need to do is get on with life...perhaps reach out to another person in pain...nothing like helping someone else to take the focus off of me and get over myself.

Oh, BTW...I was also told it helps to pray for the person who has hurt me...surprisingly, IT WORKS!!!