Here it goes...
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Join Date: Dec 2007
Location: Ohio
Posts: 20
Here it goes...
Hello everyone,
My name is Matt and I have been sober for just over three weeks...feels like three years in my head. Like many other stories I have read my isn't pretty, but I figure that is why I am here. I started using drugs when I was 11 and over that last two decades or so things have become worse. I really couldn't count how many days I missed at the bar in the last 13 years.
I decided to seek help after many of my "drinking buddies" told me I need to slow down. What! I was hanging out with them right? So I took up a friends idea to stop for a week...after day two I started getting real sick. After day four I called the only friend I knew who was sober and she helped me out. That is when I realized I had a problem. Not the 10 - 12 shots I drank a day and bottle of wine to fall asleep. Don't get me wrong some days were worse than others. But I ended up drinking all day, everyday. Then the drugs I would do when I was drinking, seemed like second nature. Now I am no longer physically sick, yet I find myself needing to find something to do or I will start drinking again. That is why I am here posting this.
This morning my did friend take me to my first AA meeting. She had warned me there may be things I didn't like, but all-in-all it wasn't as bad as I thought. I am not sure what I need to do, as I have found sometimes I am just as confused as when I was high or drunk. I am sure I will try it again.
Well thanks for listening...
My name is Matt and I have been sober for just over three weeks...feels like three years in my head. Like many other stories I have read my isn't pretty, but I figure that is why I am here. I started using drugs when I was 11 and over that last two decades or so things have become worse. I really couldn't count how many days I missed at the bar in the last 13 years.
I decided to seek help after many of my "drinking buddies" told me I need to slow down. What! I was hanging out with them right? So I took up a friends idea to stop for a week...after day two I started getting real sick. After day four I called the only friend I knew who was sober and she helped me out. That is when I realized I had a problem. Not the 10 - 12 shots I drank a day and bottle of wine to fall asleep. Don't get me wrong some days were worse than others. But I ended up drinking all day, everyday. Then the drugs I would do when I was drinking, seemed like second nature. Now I am no longer physically sick, yet I find myself needing to find something to do or I will start drinking again. That is why I am here posting this.
This morning my did friend take me to my first AA meeting. She had warned me there may be things I didn't like, but all-in-all it wasn't as bad as I thought. I am not sure what I need to do, as I have found sometimes I am just as confused as when I was high or drunk. I am sure I will try it again.
Well thanks for listening...
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Join Date: Dec 2007
Posts: 32
Hey Matt
I'm Cheryl..Welcome here. I'm new as well. I am an alcoholic, and mostly like to take tons of pills when I drink as well. This is my second time trying to get sober so I know what you are going through..This board has helped me.Everyone has simular stories, and is supportive. Sometimes the only thing that can get you through something is talking to those that have been through it..really no one else can understand unless its happened to them..
Good Luck with staying sober.
I'm Cheryl..Welcome here. I'm new as well. I am an alcoholic, and mostly like to take tons of pills when I drink as well. This is my second time trying to get sober so I know what you are going through..This board has helped me.Everyone has simular stories, and is supportive. Sometimes the only thing that can get you through something is talking to those that have been through it..really no one else can understand unless its happened to them..
Good Luck with staying sober.
Forward we go...side by side-Rest In Peace
Join Date: Jun 2002
Location: Serene In Dixie
Posts: 36,740
Glad you have started on your new healthy sober life Matt!
Well done and Congratulations!
I have found AA to be immensley helpful
and it's a great place to find new sober friends.
We do all sorts of activities ..and have a sober blast!
Welcome to SR!
Well done and Congratulations!
I have found AA to be immensley helpful
and it's a great place to find new sober friends.
We do all sorts of activities ..and have a sober blast!
Welcome to SR!
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Join Date: Jun 2006
Location: LA - Lower Alabama
Posts: 5,068
Matt,
I suggest you try several meetings/groups until you find one that clicks with you. The good news is that Ohio is the birthplace of AA and there are TONS of meetings there, especially if you live in a town of any size.
Keep posting and let us know how you are doing.
I suggest you try several meetings/groups until you find one that clicks with you. The good news is that Ohio is the birthplace of AA and there are TONS of meetings there, especially if you live in a town of any size.
Keep posting and let us know how you are doing.
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Join Date: Jan 2007
Location: Western NC
Posts: 783
Hey Matt. Glad you found this sight it sure helps in between meetings. AA truely has given me a new life. I have been off the booze for almost a year, and it seems like three weeks. So I promiss it gets a lot better.
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Welcome to you both, I'm glad you've found us at SR. I first came here several years ago and I'm still here clean/sober after many falls. There will always be someone here to pick you up and dust you off and love you.
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Join Date: Sep 2004
Location: seattle
Posts: 468
Hey Matt,
I relate. I could no longer drink "like a gentleman"...LOL.
And my crack dealer told me i better slow down.. Hmm...
Bottom for me was brutal, and i had completely lost dignity, and most will to live like that, like anything...
Anyway, welcome, and glad youre going to meetings. I found the solution there, you will too.
If you want what we have., you are ready to take certain steps...
I relate. I could no longer drink "like a gentleman"...LOL.
And my crack dealer told me i better slow down.. Hmm...
Bottom for me was brutal, and i had completely lost dignity, and most will to live like that, like anything...
Anyway, welcome, and glad youre going to meetings. I found the solution there, you will too.
If you want what we have., you are ready to take certain steps...
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Join Date: Dec 2007
Location: Ohio
Posts: 20
Thanks to everyone. I find it odd that I spent 2/3rds of of my life hiding from people and now I am seeking help. Yet I still feel uncomfortable when I do. Go figure.
I have been told this gets easier, sure hope so.
I have been told this gets easier, sure hope so.
Breaking thru to ME
Join Date: Nov 2007
Location: State of Imaginary Grace
Posts: 4
Welcome...
I too am new here and in all of my years of addiction (active and dry) this is my first time that I have embraced the program and even though some things have have gone from bad to worse and from hectic to pure hell... I have found peace and serenity thru the strength of others. Their sharing and their openess has allowed me to see the HP speak and use them to minister hope, encouragement and strength to me....
I hope you find sure footing and safe passage on your journey....
YOU ONLY HAVE Du_Jour.... THE DAY
I too am new here and in all of my years of addiction (active and dry) this is my first time that I have embraced the program and even though some things have have gone from bad to worse and from hectic to pure hell... I have found peace and serenity thru the strength of others. Their sharing and their openess has allowed me to see the HP speak and use them to minister hope, encouragement and strength to me....
I hope you find sure footing and safe passage on your journey....
YOU ONLY HAVE Du_Jour.... THE DAY
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