trakin

Hi. I am new here. I need help. I am the child of alcoholic parents, and I am quite sure that I am an alcoholic too. I started drinking when I was about 12. That was just he way it was in my family....some kids come home from school and have milk and cookies. I came home and got wine and a cigarette.

I am trying very hard to contol my alcoholic tendencies. I drink infrequently, and for the most part, I have a very healthy lifestyle --eat well and excercise a lot. However, when I do drink, I am an ugly freaking mess. I can't stop at one or two drinks. Once I start, I just can't stop. My husband has had to pick me up off of the floor. It's just so horrible and embarrassing.

I have a great job that I love, and my alcohol problems don't usually interfere with that, but on the weekends, if I choose to drink---I am such a mess. I hate myself. I guess I need to stop drinking forever, for good. But because I have a high-stress job, I often want to have "a drink" on the weekend. The problem is that once I have one, I just don't seem to be able to stop. In fact, it seems I can't stop....once I start...once I have that first "relaxing" drink of wine...I just go on and on until I am completely spiflicated.

Please help. I don't ever want to be drunk again, but I don't want to go to AA meetings either.

Anna

Hi and Welcome,

It sounds like alcohol is causing problems in your life, and if you can't stop drinking once you start, that is alcoholism. I'm not sure if you're committed to stopping drinking because it is hard to do and requires a lot of work. I found I had to make some big changes in my life and one of them was finding different ways to relax when I was stressed.

You don't need to be drunk again and, though AA is a good option, there are other recovery methods too. I am not an AA person and I've been in recovery for a long time.

Keep reading and posting.

IO Storm

Hi trakin...

I am IO...

My drinking career started much as yours...a Christmas and New Year's only drinker..

(but always with a blackout drunk)..then a weekender..then daily...

I am an AA'er...but I am sure other will be on later to offer other suggestions

for help if you don't want AA.

There is one undeniable fact however. If you truly have the disease of

alcoholism (as do I)..know that it is progressive..(it only gets worse)..

and it is fatal in the end. Please seek help wherever and however you can.

Coming to SR is a huge step. Someone is always here for you to talk with

and share your concerns. And, we can be a fun bunch.

My very best to you!

Sherry

Dee74

Sherry's right Trakin...it will get worse...not only will you find it takes less to put you on the floor but, unless you're very focused, it'll creep in during the week too.

Not sure what to tell you...you often want a drink on the weekend ? If you're alcoholic (and sounds like you are) there's no way to successfully and consistently moderate - you can't have just one.

I didn't do AA but I did want to stop and that means - no more.
Not one.

Whatever drinking did for me - boredom, fear, relaxation, to fit in, whatever - I have to find other ways, cos the way I drink - the way all alcoholics drink - it'll kill me...but it'll take my life away years before that.

D

trakin

Thanks you guys --

I am actually drinking now....I really want to stop.

IO Storm

You've got the desire trakin' ...just read , read, read, and post some.....

You're going to find a lot of folks just like yourself here.. a real eye opener.

trakin

Wow --

This is a great and helpful site. I am drunk now, but I hope to be better in the furure. thank you.

Dee74

Wish you well Trakin - come back too after today ok ?

D

IO Storm

Be safe trakin.

CarolD

Welcome to SR!

I drank to be happy...it made me depressed.
I drank because of a stress..and it magnified the problem.
I drank when I was sad...and turned into a sodden mess.

Not until I detested the drinking me was I able to quit.

Wisest move I ever made!...:
Blessings