Never been cool
everything is already ok
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Never been cool
I have never been one of those guys who where cool. I used to think I was cool, that was usually when I was so smashed I was dribbling and groaning on the floor.
In recovery I am learnig to be me and that has meant looking at myself through others who are 'cool' and realising that cool is not who I am. I post it here as its much harder than I thought it would be, but hey thats ok, recovery is a process so long as I keep being in it.
Kevin
PS Read this again and its rambling. What I mean is that I need to be me and not worry how I look, you know that horrid saying; "can't save your ass and face at the same time" well in order to grow I need to be me and honour me whatever others think.
There thats clearer - lol
In recovery I am learnig to be me and that has meant looking at myself through others who are 'cool' and realising that cool is not who I am. I post it here as its much harder than I thought it would be, but hey thats ok, recovery is a process so long as I keep being in it.
Kevin
PS Read this again and its rambling. What I mean is that I need to be me and not worry how I look, you know that horrid saying; "can't save your ass and face at the same time" well in order to grow I need to be me and honour me whatever others think.
There thats clearer - lol
Last edited by nogard; 12-07-2007 at 06:11 PM. Reason: cos I am so uncool!
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funny you should mention this Kevin.....I been heard to say recently..it's not about how we look....and this from a vain person...it's hard to be vain when each time I look in the mirror I see an almost 50 year old face looking back at me. 
So happy I found recovery...
So happy I found recovery...
everything is already ok
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going to meet a very attractive woman tomorrow. This is the sort of thing that helps me sort out who I am or who I am becoming as I never knew myself before.
Kevin
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Never been cool
Got sober and slowly figured out that HS&C was not really what I was nor what I wanted to be.
It takes times, but slowly, peeling away the layers of denial, I have found ME. Today I LIKE ME. Today, its easy to be a 'nice' person, just because I want to, not what I can get out of it. Today it's easy "not to worry what others think of me."
All this takes time, and watching (reading) you these last couple of years has shown how much you have grown!!!!
Thanks for letting me be a part of your recovery.
Love and hugs,
everything is already ok
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Yes Laurie thats what I think its about, finding myself and then seeing and living my life from that new perspective and then finding myself again and .... and so it continues. So who wants to be cool, what a waste of energy, rather be me, that was the whole point of this thread.
Kevin
Kevin
Originally Posted by laurie6781 
Oh WOW Keven when I was out there all those years drinking and drugging, I 'knew' I was "HS&C" as in Hip, Slick and Cool, rofl.
Got sober and slowly figured out that HS&C was not really what I was nor what I wanted to be.
It takes times, but slowly, peeling away the layers of denial, I have found ME. Today I LIKE ME. Today, its easy to be a 'nice' person, just because I want to, not what I can get out of it. Today it's easy "not to worry what others think of me."
All this takes time, and watching (reading) you these last couple of years has shown how much you have grown!!!!
Thanks for letting me be a part of your recovery.
Love and hugs,
Got sober and slowly figured out that HS&C was not really what I was nor what I wanted to be.
It takes times, but slowly, peeling away the layers of denial, I have found ME. Today I LIKE ME. Today, its easy to be a 'nice' person, just because I want to, not what I can get out of it. Today it's easy "not to worry what others think of me."
All this takes time, and watching (reading) you these last couple of years has shown how much you have grown!!!!
Thanks for letting me be a part of your recovery.
Love and hugs,
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To me being cool is being myself no matter what the world's interpretation of myself is, i still will always be what HP wanted me to be...But it's a long process of acceptance. But i do think it's my main road of life.
Great thread Nogard...!
Great thread Nogard...!
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