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Hi Everyone, I posted this originally on Sept. 24. before the forum crashed. This is what happened to me on my last drunk. I am now on Day 75. I just wanted to share this again with everyone and to the new people especially. It is possible to quit drinking one day at a time.

My Last Drunk

This is what happened on my last night drunk. It started out like any other drinking binge. I had 4 rum and cokes and we got some peppermint schnapps. I had 3 shots. When we went to bed that night, I had a blackout. I don’t remember going up to bed. We always have one last cigarette before going to sleep and I don’t remember that either.
My husband told me when we got into bed I was crying my eyes out about being drunk again. I don’t remember that either. After I calmed down we made love and this is when my memory was starting to come back. I do remember that vaguely.
We had another cigarette and I noticed the time was going on 7:00 AM. Well I freaked out and started crying again. I also ended up in a rage and started kicking my dresser and blaming my husband for keeping me up so late. I’m surprised that I didn’t hurt my foot. I have hurt myself in the past. After I calmed down we finally went to sleep and I didn’t get up until almost 3:00 in the afternoon.
When I woke up, I had a really bad hangover. At 5:00 was my nephews 21st Birthday Party. I made it, but really felt like crap until I ate something. Food always tends to make me feel better sometimes, not always but a majority of the time.
I’m writing all this down to remember. This is what happens to me when I get drunk. If I don’t stop now something worse could happen. I don’t want to live this way any more. I have to remember that life is what I make it. It’s time to stop worrying about things and learn to live “one day at a time” like my new sober friends.

Barb