short answer...I dunno :)
I think Laura's onto something tho...maybe it's the stuff we don't deal with, that we avoid...hell the stuff we drink to run away from in the first place coming back to bite us ?

I know I was angry, resentful, hurt, deep down...furious really.
So deep I really only realised how much after I got into recovery.

But I never showed it sober.
D