I want to quit...
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I want to quit...
I really want to quit drinking but I've failed so many times. I'll go along for a while and I'll undo my work with a slip. My mind works against me and I've overcome with old habits, by finding myself at my favorite pub. I'm in hell.
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Welcome to SR 5Iron, I hope you find some inspiration to recover by reading in these forums about those who've achieved sobriety.
AA has blessed me with a life that I used to dream of having, I know you'll find a solution if you desire it. If there's any simple wisdom I can share, it's that it's possible to never have to drink again.
AA has blessed me with a life that I used to dream of having, I know you'll find a solution if you desire it. If there's any simple wisdom I can share, it's that it's possible to never have to drink again.
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Originally Posted by 5Iron 
I really want to quit drinking but I've failed so many times. I'll go along for a while and I'll undo my work with a slip. My mind works against me and I've overcome with old habits, by finding myself at my favorite pub. I'm in hell.
Alcoholism is a stunning, cunning, baffling disease that have
the educated mystified, the spiritual praying to God and the rest
wonderdering whats it all about alfie, sorry, just a little needed sence of
humor about a very serious problem, but yet, fact of life for some people............
I welcome you here to SR and hope you find what I did, a great support
community of peers that understand what I am all about.......
Trying to recover...God speed and God bless :praying
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I know the feeling. I've wanted to quit for a long,long time. The only reason that I wanted to quit was because I knew that trying to control it was a complete waste of time. The thing was that I wanted to quit, but I also wanted to drink too. I didn't even bother trying. Occasionally I would look at my drink as I was raising it up and say to myself that I need to quit one of these days.
All those days I talked about wanting to quit added up to years. All Talk! I got kicked in the teeth by reality one afternoon and all that BS about wanting to quit turned into the day I needed to quit and had to quit. I quit! My "want" turned into my "Need" in an instant. So if you "want" to quit, turn it into a "must" and a "need" because there's a good chance someday that somebody else will do it for you! You may be under someone elses control.
Success comes from doing things that you really don't want to do, but need to. It's like your tires on your car. You can look at them for months telling yourself that you need to get tires pretty soon as the cords are showing. You don't really "Need" to, you just think it would be a good idea. One blowout later and you will now have a real "Need" for new tires. It may not be a good time and may catch you off guard. Just like Alcoholism. Every one of us is going to quit some day. We just get to control when and how.
All those days I talked about wanting to quit added up to years. All Talk! I got kicked in the teeth by reality one afternoon and all that BS about wanting to quit turned into the day I needed to quit and had to quit. I quit! My "want" turned into my "Need" in an instant. So if you "want" to quit, turn it into a "must" and a "need" because there's a good chance someday that somebody else will do it for you! You may be under someone elses control.
Success comes from doing things that you really don't want to do, but need to. It's like your tires on your car. You can look at them for months telling yourself that you need to get tires pretty soon as the cords are showing. You don't really "Need" to, you just think it would be a good idea. One blowout later and you will now have a real "Need" for new tires. It may not be a good time and may catch you off guard. Just like Alcoholism. Every one of us is going to quit some day. We just get to control when and how.
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Originally Posted by Pinkcuda
So what happened?
My drinking started with grief. Now its just an addiction. I lost my strength, my will and my faith.
Your story about quitting out of necessity, I get that. The resolution is black and white, do it or else.
Me, I'm scraping along the bottom, existing but not living. Going through the motions if you will.
No alcohol for 48 hours.
I'm going back to a meeting tonight. I have to face the music.
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oh wow - I am so sorry about your son. Please keep posting here, there are a lot of people with a tremendous amount of support. Congrats on the 48 hours, and I'm glad you're going to a meeting.
Hugs and prayers!
Amy
Hugs and prayers!
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5Iron smart move going back to a meeting this evening, I extend my deepest condolances for the lose of your son.
I have walked in your shoes my friend, "existing but not living. Going through the motions if you will." I did that for a lot of years, work and drink, that was my life, I started drinking the second I got off work and drank all the way home, fixed dinner while drinking, sat in the garage by myself drinking, ate dinner, back to the garage to drink some more, then off to bed. Repeat every day for over 5 years.
After detox I found the ability to stay stopped in the rooms of AA, I am not sure what your program was like before you started again, but mine was and still is the following:
1. Meetings.
2. Calling 3 AA folks daily (At first one of them was my sponsor)
3. Working the steps with my sponsor (Now I work them with my sponsee)
4. Doing service work
5. Working with other alcoholics
You know what you need to do, I will be pulling for you, just follow suggestions and get "into" AA and not "around" AA, the difference between the 2 can be a matter of life and death.
You know the solution, just work it brother, keep in mind we love you and we need you just as much as you need us.
I have walked in your shoes my friend, "existing but not living. Going through the motions if you will." I did that for a lot of years, work and drink, that was my life, I started drinking the second I got off work and drank all the way home, fixed dinner while drinking, sat in the garage by myself drinking, ate dinner, back to the garage to drink some more, then off to bed. Repeat every day for over 5 years.
After detox I found the ability to stay stopped in the rooms of AA, I am not sure what your program was like before you started again, but mine was and still is the following:
1. Meetings.
2. Calling 3 AA folks daily (At first one of them was my sponsor)
3. Working the steps with my sponsor (Now I work them with my sponsee)
4. Doing service work
5. Working with other alcoholics
You know what you need to do, I will be pulling for you, just follow suggestions and get "into" AA and not "around" AA, the difference between the 2 can be a matter of life and death.
You know the solution, just work it brother, keep in mind we love you and we need you just as much as you need us.
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