I have so much to share right now and yet...
61'st day sober as of:12/18/07
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I have so much to share right now and yet...
...I am drinking and so anyone reading this, please just accept my virtual ((((hug)))). I'm so sorry because I had a lot to say and I wanted to say SOMTHING but alcohol has robbed me of that opportunity at the moment )-:
Need4Change
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you were reaching out. How about reaching out somemore. Everything in my life is going all wrong has been for a long time, but i keep plugging along and it slowly gets better.
talking about wharever it is bothering you is much better than drowning it out.
talking about wharever it is bothering you is much better than drowning it out.
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Originally Posted by Need4Change 
...I am drinking and so anyone reading this, please just accept my virtual ((((hug)))). I'm so sorry because I had a lot to say and I wanted to say SOMTHING but alcohol has robbed me of that opportunity at the moment )-:
Need4Change
Need4Change
You need to give yourself a hug and start over...
Thinking of you...:comfort
61'st day sober as of:12/18/07
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Join Date: Mar 2007
Location: Casper, Wyoming U.S.
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Hi everyone and thanks so much for your support and encouragement!.
Yesterday was the first day in years that I can remember skipping ALL of my important medications for the day. I just got really distracted and forgot to take them. Since a LOT of these medications are very important to both my physical and mental well-being (ie; high BP meds, anti-anxiety meds, Prevacid, etc) and since I drank COMPLETELY on an empty stomach this time, I had a really bad "trip" and after about the 8'th or 9'th beer my friend called me in for dinner and when I didn't respond he came into my bedroom and asked me if I was ok and all I could say/moan was "uhhhhhhhhh...".
I did manage (barely) to pull myself together enough to eat part of my dinner and then put the rest in the fridge so I could finish it the following day when my body could actually absorb the nutrients from it. I also sobered up just enough to take my missed meds and then went right to bed.
This morning, I felt suprizingly good. I got plenty of sleep, ate breakfast, took a long walk, did my push-ups, made coffee and got a lot done around the house. I also REMEMBERED to take my meds this morning and have NO intention of drinking today at ALL!!.
Anyway, yes, I had a lot to share last night but now that I'm sober again, I have no idea what I wanted to say. Maybe I was just lonely and/or reaching out or something. Anyway, thank you all so very much for being there for me in my hour of need. It may feel good to get a "buzz" from drinking but I can tell you that it feels 100 times as good just to be sober again and in control of my thoughts and emotions.
Need4Change
Yesterday was the first day in years that I can remember skipping ALL of my important medications for the day. I just got really distracted and forgot to take them. Since a LOT of these medications are very important to both my physical and mental well-being (ie; high BP meds, anti-anxiety meds, Prevacid, etc) and since I drank COMPLETELY on an empty stomach this time, I had a really bad "trip" and after about the 8'th or 9'th beer my friend called me in for dinner and when I didn't respond he came into my bedroom and asked me if I was ok and all I could say/moan was "uhhhhhhhhh...".
I did manage (barely) to pull myself together enough to eat part of my dinner and then put the rest in the fridge so I could finish it the following day when my body could actually absorb the nutrients from it. I also sobered up just enough to take my missed meds and then went right to bed.
This morning, I felt suprizingly good. I got plenty of sleep, ate breakfast, took a long walk, did my push-ups, made coffee and got a lot done around the house. I also REMEMBERED to take my meds this morning and have NO intention of drinking today at ALL!!.
Anyway, yes, I had a lot to share last night but now that I'm sober again, I have no idea what I wanted to say. Maybe I was just lonely and/or reaching out or something. Anyway, thank you all so very much for being there for me in my hour of need. It may feel good to get a "buzz" from drinking but I can tell you that it feels 100 times as good just to be sober again and in control of my thoughts and emotions.
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You can do it, Need4. Stay close here, there is always someone around to talk to and help if you feel like drinking. Keep trying...your post today sounded like you are ready to face the challenge. Keep it up, friend!
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