I think I might need a little SR srtength to keep me strong
Beth, it used to be intention to drink until I felt nothing too. But, I know you can get through this. I bet your Mom would want to hear from you, if she knew how low you were feeling. And, stick around here, I'll be around all evening.
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My mom and I talk atleast every other day and she is well aware of my problems minus the full extent of my legal troubles. she knows I have some but doesnt know excatly. she also knows im having trouble here, but she cant get past her fears of me being homeless agin. In her mind it is better for me to stay here for now. we spoke earlier, but she has no idea how upset I am today.
Were both mutually upset because yesterday would have been his 77th b-day. What a coincidece yesterday was my 77th dau clean.
Thanks guys I will probably be on and off all night.
oh wow the phone just rang i picked up and its my mom so im on the phone with her as i type this. she can tell something is wrong im gonna go talk to her.
tell some story i suppose i just dont want her to worry.
Were both mutually upset because yesterday would have been his 77th b-day. What a coincidece yesterday was my 77th dau clean.
Thanks guys I will probably be on and off all night.
oh wow the phone just rang i picked up and its my mom so im on the phone with her as i type this. she can tell something is wrong im gonna go talk to her.
tell some story i suppose i just dont want her to worry.
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I am embarassed to say that I have been making phone calls and they are not calls looking for help if you know what I mean. Im done I cant take it. once I started thinking about slitting my wrists I decided getting high might be the better alternative for now.
Im just sitting here waiting for call backs.
What the hell is wrong with me?
Im just sitting here waiting for call backs.
What the hell is wrong with me?
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Beth!! Get out of the house. Go to a movie. Phone your mom back. Talk to someone here. Do you *****? IM me, I'm here.
It's just a craving, a thought. You don't have to do this.
You're an addict, that's what's wrong with you. Getting past the cravings when you are in so much pain is excruciatingly painful, but IT IS POSSIBLE.
Come on, hon. Back it up.
I'm glad you ratted yourself out! That says a lot!!
It's just a craving, a thought. You don't have to do this.
You're an addict, that's what's wrong with you. Getting past the cravings when you are in so much pain is excruciatingly painful, but IT IS POSSIBLE.
Come on, hon. Back it up.
I'm glad you ratted yourself out! That says a lot!!
Unplug the phone and don't answer the call backs. You can get through this without using. Sorry you're having a hard time... if you use it will be so much worse though. You'll be starting all over again if you're even that lucky. Just don't do it... it's not worth it!
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